Misunderstandings And The F**K Boy

Lucy's Mum

Lucy's POV

I ran up stairs to sort Tyler out.  He luckily drifted back off to sleep straight away but I gave myself a few moments to process everything.  Today had been perfect not how I expected things to have turned out.  I kind of trusted Spencer well enough to have let him meet Tyler and invite him back to my house to have given him my first kiss and make out session.  It was clear to see he had enjoyed it I never told him but that boy had got me wet and if Tyler hadn't of fallen out of bed I do not know what else may of happened.

He said he wanted me and backed away from Stacey because of me and I want to believe him.  Everything had been perfect simple but perfect but that isn't going to be a enough for him is it?  I knew he had been in a long term relationship with Sarah Lomax and after that ended he became a f**k boy maybe he was just hurting?  Self doubt crept in....Stacey, Chloe and now Harriet am I going to be enough for him?

I think about today and for once I am happy I don't know how long this  will last but I decide to go with it.  Spencer knew I had never been with a boy before and that I wasn't like the other girls he has been with.

I head back down stairs when I see him holding that picture as he asks me

"Lucy what's this" looking confused at me.

I feel my whole body tense and my mood change.

"Had a good nose" I said nastily.

"What" he exclaimed at me sounding taken back by my sudden change in attitude and body language.

"Think it's time you left" I said coldly looking away from him.

"Lucy.....really....what's wrong?  Why have you switched all of a sudden?" He said sounding really concerned as he stared into my eyes.

I could feel the tears coming....and I couldn't fight them back.

"Babe...what is it, please tell me" he said as he grabbed me and held me into him.  I cried into him a deep sob as he let me cry it out.  I held on to him tightly.  Spencer never said a word, he just held me.

After a few minutes, I pulled away and sat on the sofa with him following me.

"Please tell me Lucy, I don't like seeing you like this" he said and I could hear sadness in his voice for me.

I look at him and compose myself....I never expected to be telling this to Spencer of all people.

"That photo is such  a happy memory for me Spencer.  I don't think you remember me but I went to the same school as you and Perry.  I left just before the end of year 1.  My Mum had got a new job and my Dad transferred to another department and we moved to our new house in a completely different town.  I didn't like my new school and I missed all my friends.  I found it really hard to settle in and make new friends.  Things started getting better for me it took ages and for me to adapt but I finally made new friends and felt happy until my whole world came crashing down, not just mine but my Dad's and Tyler's"

I look at Spencer and I can feel the tears coming on again, he takes hold of my hand, he genuinely looks concerned and sad for me.

"Tell my babe" he says and he looks deep into me, like he is looking into my soul.

"My Mum never came home from work she was a paramedic.  She had finished her shift and was driving home when her car got hit by a drunk driver killing her instantly" I say laying my soul out to Spencer.

I look at Spencer and I see him wiping his eyes too.

"But Luc" he says gently and continues

"Tyler said you visited your Mum today" and he looks confused.

I look at Spencer and give him a small smile

"We did, we went to the cemetery.  We call it Mummy's forever bed to try and make it easier for Tyler.  Tyler has been through so much Spencer.  You wouldn't think it as he comes across confident but he suffers with anxiety, separation issues, has night terrors and sometimes he will wet the bed.  Both me and Tyler went for bereavement counselling.  It has mentally set Tyler back a few years.

Spencer grabs me tightly once again and whispers in my ear

"I'm so sorry babe, I had no idea.  Now I can see why Tyler means so much to you, why you have such a strong bond.  Listen you ever need to talk or need a hand with Tyler I'm here for you both...always"  He leant in and wiped my eyes.  

He  lays down on the sofa and motions his hand for me to lay with him. I lay down next to him and  I cuddled up to him my head on his chest he wrapped his strong arms around me and held me close.  I was tired and exhausted, I fell asleep feeling safe in his arms and that's how we stayed all night.

I woke up at 6AM, Spencer still there by my side.

"Morning beautiful" words I did not expect to hear.....ever.

"Morning" I say back to him.

I scratch my head and jump off the sofa wanting to make physical distance from him.

He  is still laying on the sofa, on his side with his arm propping his head up even first thing in the morning he looks gorgeous he smiles at me but I need to say this.

"Look Spencer what I told you last night is personal it's deep and if you want to run from this whatever this is I will understand.  I am complex and have my own trust issues and believe that everyone will eventually leave me, so if you want to do one just do it now I wouldn't hold it against you.  I should never of told you what I did last night it's too personal.  Also I don't think we will work I won't be enough for you I am nothing like the other girls you go with".  I said this  coldly not wanting him to go but giving him the option and reinforcing to him that I am not some easy lay.

He looks at me and I can see his whole composure has changed he looks hurt at what I have said.

He walks over to me and smiles

"Listen Luc, I'm not going anywhere....unless you want me to?  I'm into you Luc, I want you and no one else" He says his eyes lighting up, he moves in  and tenderly kisses the top of my head whilst wrapping his arms around me.  I Iook up and smile at him I kiss him on the lips and pull away...

"Hey is that all I get?" he says.

"Yes....I have got to get Tyler up and ready for school and get to school myself" I say smiling at him.

He looks intensely at me and says

"Listen Luc, thank you for trusting me and letting me into your world, it means a lot.   Umm Jahmals having a party on Friday night and I was wondering if you would come with me? I'd pick you up and we would go together and I'll drop you home.....what'd you say?"

I can feel myself shyly smiling at him as I reply to him.

"Umm I dunno, I will need to see what shift my Dad is on cos of Tyler....but I would love to come with you Spencer,  let me see what I can arrange". I reply to him.

He smiles widely at me and kisses me goodbye.

"See later at school babe" he says

I watch him leave and walk to his car he glances back as he goes to get in his car smiling at me.