───𝐉𝐔𝐒𝐓 𝐎𝐍𝐄 𝐃𝐀𝐘.

Adulthood [Sapnap]

─── ･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. ───

He entered my life in winter and brought spring with him. His breath taking smile radiated warmth, thawing the ice that had settled over my heart, breaking down my guard and leaving me vulnerable as the last of the snow melted away and the flowers began to bloom. I was completely at his mercy but he was far too sweet to abuse the power he had over me.

We were young and careless, just entering adulthood. Nineteen, the age of endless possibilities and from all of those options we chose each other.

During that summer, intimacy with him came as naturally as breathing. His touch gave me strength and his lips gave me life. There was a time when, we spent days on end, tangled in each other, spoiling ourselves with one another's company. Back when time allowed it.

But 2 years since the beginning of our relationship, we were no longer the naive, carefree individuals that our former selves had been. Time was moving and we had to follow suit. Graduation was fast approaching and we were constantly plagued by the looming shadow of the 'real world'.

By autumn, we had changed.

University was now a mere memory of the past and we had been plunged into society head-on. We weren't kids anymore. There were no more adults to guide us and fix our mistakes, for now, we were the adults. Adults that needed to do adult things. Like go to work and pay the bills. Our once familiar ripped jeans and denim jackets had now been replaced with rigid dress shirts and blazers and our fingers now slaved over grimy keyboards instead of flittering over one another's skin. Reality was suffocating yet the only thing we could do was accept it and play by its rules.

We naturally drifted apart, the exhaustion of wedging ourselves into societal moulds replacing the euphoria we once felt moulding into one another. After all, how could we find time for each other if we couldn't even find time for ourselves?

He was a symbol of my younger, more carefree days. And although magical while it lasted, I couldn't hold onto those days forever. I couldn't sacrifice my future by living in the past. Even if it meant turning my back on the boy that crafted the highlight of my youth.  

I couldn't help but shed a tear as I turned away and began walking away. The boy with blonde-brownish hair, who had claimed such a significant portion of my youth, was now officially just a memory of the best time of my life. We had both grown too much and with growth came change. We no longer had time for child's play.

A bittersweet smile settled on my lips and as the first snow of the year began to fall, I once again welcomed winter.

My winter without him.

─── ･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. ───

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𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕒𝕣𝕖 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕙𝕚𝕘𝕙𝕝𝕚𝕘𝕙𝕥 𝕠𝕗 𝕞𝕪 𝕝𝕚𝕗𝕖

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