The Moment

Chapter Thirty-Eight

"Dixie..." I mumbled, turning around to face her. I couldn't actually believe she had managed to find me in this giant house as I actively tried to avoid her. I looked at the girl I once considered one of my best friends, someone I couldn't ever imagine fighting with about anything; especially a guy.

"I know you're mad at me and you probably don't want to ever talk to me again but just-"

"I'm not mad." I stated. I think that must have been one of the biggest lies I ever told. I was undeniably pissed. "Apparently my life is too complicated for Noah so he decided to go for someone whose life is...oh wait...just as complicated as mine."

"You're mad." Rolling my eyes, I looked away from her. I was getting more and more mad the longer I stood here waiting to hear some bullshit excuse as to why she thought going after her best friend's boyfriend was an acceptable thing to do. "It was innocent, at first...okay? It was just two friends hanging out and then-"

"And then my boyfriend cheated on me with my best friend." I finished for her. "Or, and then two of the most important people in my life stabbed me in the back." I finished again, giving her options of how she wanted to explain herself. "Or or or, and then the two most important people in my life did it so painfully in my face that I didn't have time to process it before the rest of the world did."

"Regan-"

"No, you know what, Dixie? I've been wondering for time now what the hell was going on with me and Noah, I've been waiting for a phone call or a text or a fucking DM but I got none of that. All I got was tabloids of his ass running around with yours. And all the times we sat in my house, talking about him and I told you how much I was starting to like him and how much it would kill me if I fucked it up in any way; all those times flashed in my head every time I saw your God damn face with his. And you sat there, knowing, that eventually it wouldn't be me who fucked it up after all."

"I didn't-"

"You didn't know." My voice was low but shaky as I tried to hold back the tears. Everything in my life felt as if it would eventually end up in disaster and God was just taking his sweet time fucking ruining me. "But you did. So go Dixie, go be with your boyfriend at a party in front of all your other friends; it doesn't matter anymore. None of this shit matters anymore. I hope it works out for you two but just remember; he'll start something just as fast with someone else as he did with you."

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Arriving home, I couldn't believe I actually thought attending that stupid party was a good idea. I was barely keeping it together as it was and that conversation with Dixie really just made me realize it wasn't worth it. I couldn't care less what her reasons were for what she did, I couldn't care less how she felt about him and I couldn't care less if they actually work out or not. Things were going to be different now and the relationships around me don't matter.

Turning the shower on, I felt the hot water slide down my back and I finally felt as if I could relax. My mind had been running at a million miles per hour for days now and this is the only time I felt decently okay.

Opening the bathroom door, I entered my room, looking for the comfiest pair of pjs I could find but my heart stopped when I glanced at my balcony and saw his face. Gripping the towel tighter to my chest, I stood frozen, not really knowing what to do. Do I let him in? Do I tell him to fuck off? I really don't know how this is going to play out...

A/N: I'm so sorry for the lack of updates, guys! I bought a new gaming computer so my life has pretty much been all about the Sims...LOL forgive me! Also, who else thinks Dixie's new song kinda sucks but is also a bop at the same time...?