Quarantine swipe

Going with the flow

Dr. Will: you're wicked

I laughed in disbelief

All day he's been sending me insulting texts because I didn't wanted to donate to the organization.

It was obviously a scam.
It was Bullshit as Emerson said.

Dr. Will: you're the meanest person I've ever met

And with that I had enough. I blocked the bastard. And I also reported him on the app.

After my run I came home to find a very quiet hall, Emerson wasn't home.

I missed him.

As I was alone in my apartment I couldn't help but to daydream about him. About Emerson.

I was upset about how we ended up things in the morning.
I don't know why I acted like that, why don't I just tell him everything?, why don't I just let go and be honest with him?.
I think it's because every time we're talking seriously he always drops an egocentric comment. And don't get me the wrong way, I actually loved his personality, so sure of himself, so cocky. He made me laugh so hard.

Then why was I scared of him? He knew me that well that he knew before I did that in fact I was so scared of him .
Maybe it's because I knew that I couldn't have a relationship with him? Maybe because I knew that he would break my heart in an instant because my feelings for him were so strong. Because my heart was pounding for him so hard.

After all that thinking about him, I ate, worked a little on my marketing and then got ready for my dinner with Noah.

For the first time in months I wore a pair of heels. I put on skinny jeans with a cute top and red heels. I let my hair loose and waved it a little, I put on a slight cover of make up.
I look fine I thought, I've forgot how to dress nicely.

I turned off the lights of my apartment and went out to find a something on the floor at my doorstep.
This wasn't here when I got home.
It was a plastic bag, I picked up and when I opened it there was a pepto bismol, and next to it was a note.

JUST IN CASE YOU NEED IT IN YOUR DATE, ENJOY INDIAN FOOD.
ALSO, IF YOU NEED AN OUT JUST TEXT ME THE WORDS "EMERSON YOU'RE AMAZING" AND I'LL CALL YOU SAYIN THERE'S AN EMERGENCY

I laughed.
Does this means we're good again? Was he okey with me going out with Noah?

I put the pepto bismol and the note in my bag and left to call a cab. Noah's home was in Brooklyn and I certainly wasn't using the subway in heels.

I felt I little scared when I got off the cab. The street was so deserted and it was getting darker. I got a little chills in my body, his neighborhood seemed a little dangerous, like the ones you see in movies were all the gangs kill each other.
I rang the intercom and he immediately let me in. I went up the stairs, four floors up, and finally I got into his apartment.

He was already there waiting for me
"Hello Andy!" He said
His apartment was so clean, just like mine. But the smell was the same as the chole, it smelled like curry and something sour.
My body reacted at the smell and I was reminded of my late night in the bathroom.
"Your place is so nice" I said, it was simple but nice.
"Thanks" he said .
" I made pasta" he added.
"Great" I said.
Noah opened a bottle of wine and we sat at the table to eat.
If this wasn't a date I don't know what it was. And I wasn't lying to myself anymore, I knew Noah was into me and I truly liked him, I was attracted to his smart mind, to his thoughtfulness. He was safe. But the thing I liked the most was that he didn't awake all those fears I had towards Emerson. All that avalanche of fire. And I really didn't know what I was doing, between Noah and Emerson, so I decided that I was just going with the flow.

"You look so beautiful tonight" he said to me
"Thanks you too" I said the then added "The food is amazing", he prepared a pasta with olives and artichokes that was really delicious.

Later we moved to the couch and Noah was showing me some pictures of his trip to India,
"I've always wanted to go to India" I said.
"It's very beautiful, very different from what you've see here in the city, I mean, there you can see cows and goats walking all over the streets, a lot of contrast, a lot of poverty but at the same time a lot of wealth, it's a very cultural country" he said.
"Maybe someday I'll go" I said with dreaming eyes.
"I think you'll love it" he said smiling.

We kept talking, and I learned that he was born in New York, his parents came here long before he was born, but he still had the traditions and beliefs of an Indian family.
He was telling me how his parents wanted him to marry an Indian girl, and were always setting him up with their friend's daughters.
"I can't believe people still do that" I said.
"My parents are so conservative, they like our traditions, they still believe in arranged marriages" he said.
"That's so sad" I said then added "And what about you? are you going to end up with an arranged Indian girl?" I asked.
"Hope not" he said with a sweet smile.
We finished the bottle of wine laughing and talking about his parents, about his job.
He seemed to really care about them.
I was really liking him, I could talk to him for hours.

Then suddenly there was silence. Noah looked at me with sincere eyes and told me

"I really like you Andy" he said sincerely.

He was straight, with no games, bluntly.

He grabbed my hand and I blushed smiling and then he caught me by surprise when he quickly pressed his lips against mine. It was a little sudden and awkward if I must say, I didn't t expected his kiss. I slightly opened my mouth and kissed him back. Trying to forget about Emerson, trying to like Noah.

In my opinion there's nothing more romantic than when someone approaches slowly to you and you know that he's going to kiss you, you prepare for what's coming, you crave the moment he's going to touch your lips, and when he does, its amazing. Okey, I was thinking about Emerson, I was comparing what I felt with him and what I felt when Noah kissed me. And it was nothing alike.

The lust that fired up inside me when Emerson kissed me was like flames burning all over my body.

Kissing Noah was... nice.

I let Noah kiss me, and I kissed him as well. He kissed me so tenderly, so cautious. And it felt nice. But nothing like Emerson.

There was no one like him.

Noah pulled apart a little, He caressed my cheek and said
"Andy, I'm so glad that I met you, I have to thank you" he said almost whispering
"For what?" I asked
"For giving me hope" he said
I smiled
"You helped me a lot to" I said honestly
"In what way?" He asked
"You gave me a purpose, even if it was small, like the day we watched the Star Wars movies, it was a purpose for me, you took me out from some dark places" I said
"I'm glad I could help" he said
"You always help me" I said,
"I like helping you" he said.
I smiled and then he kissed me again.

He was a great kisser.

We kept kissing but he didn't went anywhere further. It was just tenderly kissing, some caressing in the back and arms. And that's all.
He was such a gentleman.
Eventually It was time for me to leave, it was late and I was scared of returning home alone.