Quarantine swipe

Gone

Emerson crashed into my bed, resting his head on my chest.

"Andy" he said while I caressed his hair. We were both out of breath.

"That was amazing" he said
"It was" I said out of breath, out of words to explain what I was feeling, what I just felt while we were one.

He raised his head to look at me and told me
"Andy, I've never felt like this"
"Me neither" I said honestly.
"I.. I.." he stumble with what he was about to say.
"You what?" I asked sweetly widening my eyes, was he saying those words?
He looked deep into my eyes, and then he sighed.
"Nothing, let's get some sleep"
He said holding me with his both hands as he rested again his head in my chest.

I slept in his muscled warm arms. It felt so good that I thought I was dreaming.

The next day I woke up, and felt cold, I tried to find Emerson with my hands but I couldn't. I tried to open my eyes to find an empty bed, then I woke up immediately.

I sat on the bed, looked for him around my bedroom but he was nowhere to be found.

I looked at my nightstand and there was a note

GOOD MORNING BEAUTIFUL, GOT TO GO EARLY, BRB

I picked up the note and hugged it like an idiot.

I took a deep breath thinking about him, inhaling the amazing night we just had.

I stood from my bed smiling. Hopeful. I was flying. I was happy.
I can't believe we just did that, the way he made feel, the way he made love to me.

All those feelings inside me, was it love? I've never felt this way before. I could do this forever, be with him forever.

And that's when I realized, that I do love him, he was all for me, he has been for a while. I just didn't want to accept it, I was blinded by fear. But know that it was all out it was crystal for me.
I love him.

I wondered if he loved me too, if the words he stumble upon yesterday were the words I love you.
I knew that he wanted me, that our chemistry was insane. That he wanted me, I could see it in his eyes.

The day was eternal.

I made breakfast, then watch tv, then I made lunch, then watched some more tv, looked at my phone, worked a little on my advertising, prepared diner, ate diner, opened a bottle of wine, night came, looked at my phone again, there was no sign of Emerson.

Not a text, not a call, He hasn't been online since this morning, haven't heard a damn sound from the hall or from his apartment.

I was getting worried.

He probably was caught up at the bar, or maybe he went with some friends.
But why isn't he answering my calls?

I didn't want to call or text a lot, we aren't even in a relationship yet and I didn't wanted for him to think that I'm needy or clingy.

It was almost midnight. And again, no sign of him.

Now I was worried.

Should I report it to the police?

Or maybe he did it intentionally? Maybe he just wanted to have sex with me, get me over his system and now he was done with me.

Was he gone?

I reread the note that he left me

BRB

He wrote. Yeah right.

Panicked started tu build on my insides.

I got into bed trying not to worry.
As sleep won over me I dreamt of him getting home, of him getting into bed with me and hugging me all night.