Quarantine swipe

I swear

Next day was silent again.

I couldn't bare being home and knowing that he was next to
Me and that he was mad at me.

I needed to get out, so I made a bag with some clothes and left to my mom's house.

I needed an out.

I called my mom on the way to tell her that I was coming over.
My life was such a mess right now and I needed to take some time off.

When I arrived at my mom's I felt so nostalgic.
I haven't been here in a while, this was the house that I grew up, all the memories of my dad, and of my childhood were flashing in my head.

When I got inside something smelled really bad, the inside looked like it was crashed by a tsunami.

"Mom!" I yelled

God what was that putrid smell

"In here!" She yelled, she was in the living room, seating at her couch watching jeopardy.

All the room was filled with garbage.
"Mom what happened to this place?" I asked disgusted.
"Sorry baby I just didn't feel like cleaning" she said casually.
"Cleaning? Mom this place needs to be demolished" I said joking, my OCD made me shiver.
I went straight to grab a bag and started picking up the trash.
"Sweetie you don't have to clean up" she said.
"Mom if I don't clean this up you're gonna end up sleeping in trash" I said.
"Well okey then, let's clean" she said annoyed. She has always been concerned about my perfectionism.

My mom stood up from the couch and we started cleaning, vacuuming, sweeping, washing dirty dishes, after we finished it was almost dark, we were exhausted, we opened a bottle of wine and I made some diner for us.

I stayed at my mom's for the next couple of days. She was so happy of having me there, and I was happy of being here too.

We watched tv, cooked, talk. We both needed this so much.
I tried no to think of Emerson, but that was impossible. He was all over my mind, in every step that I took, he was there.

I've been texting with Noah too. After I left his house that day we kept texting casually. I told him that I was at my mom's for a few days. And I think that he was giving me space.

The next day I decided that it was time for me to go home. I hoped that Emerson had cooled off by now and we could talk.

But when I got into my apartment fear started to build inside me when I saw that my door was slightly open and my lock was broken.

I remember locking my apartment before I went to my mom's.

My breathings started to get heavier as fear consumed me, I put my palm on the door and slowly pushed it, I took a peek to see if someone was inside.

I felt like I couldn't breathe, I was so scared.

A lot of scenarios passed through my mind.
Maybe there was a guy in there with a gun, maybe he left already, maybe someone stole everything, maybe someone wanted to harm me.

Be brave Andy.

So I pushed the door open mentally prepared for whatever I would find.
And just when I was going to take a step inside

A voice behind me frightened me

"You're back" Emerson voice filled my ears.
I turned to see him.

His eyes looked so beautiful in the light that was reflected from the window.

I've missed him so much. Lately we've been fighting so much. I missed hanging with him and watching a movie, laughing at every stupid egotistical comment he said.

And as I saw him there standing with his sexy face I just wanted to throw myself at him and kiss him like there was no tomorrow.

"Where were you?" He said with shocked eyes
"I spend a few days at my mom's"
He nodded, looking at me with weird eyes
We were still at the hall, when I felt something in my foot, when I looked down there was a Box of chocolate covered marshmallows, the ones we ate the night of the weed, and there was a sticky note that said

IM SORRY

I picked it up and then raised my head towards Emerson that looked a little embarrassed. And I think he was blushing.

Then he looked at my lock.
"I'm sorry about that" he said.
"You did this?" I asked pointing to my lock.
"Sorry I got worried" he said lifting his shoulders.
"Worried about what?" I asked intrigued.
He cleared his throat

"I left that for you 2 days ago" he said pointing to the marshmallows then added "I got worried when you didn't picked them up, then the next day I knocked and knocked and you didn't answer. I started to worry, so yesterday I panicked I thought you were dead or something, so I broke in" he said

Then I started to laugh like crazy,
And he did too

"You thought I was dead?" I asked
"Well, yeah" he said laughing.

"You could've just texted me" I said
"I thought about that, but as strange as it sounds, I don't have your number" he said
He was right we never exchanged numbers.

"I'll cover the expenses from the locksmith" he said
"Don't worry about it" I said

I started walking into my apartment when he said
"Andy" I turned to see him
"I'm sorry for what I said before" he said then added "I know we are friends and all, and you don't have to give me any explanations of who you sleep with, I just don't like being lied to"
"My ex, lied to me for a long time, and I felt so betrayed" he added.
"I'm sorry" I said honestly
"I need to ask you something, but please just be honest" he said
I nod waiting for his question

He stood quiet for a second, like doubting.

"Are you into him?" He asked with a serious expression
I smiled and  said looking into his eyes
"I am not" I said "I swear"

I couldn't be more sure. I mean I liked Noah, he was a really good guy, but I wasn't into him, I never in a million years saw myself with him.
And in that moment something shoot me. I needed to be honest with Noah as well. If I was so sure I wasn't into him I couldn't give him any more hopes.