Jonathan and Cole are starting college. Cole is nervous, excited, and ready to meet new people. Jonathan is alone in his room, trying to overcome his obsessive thoughts and panic attacks and fears about meeting new people. Cole spends his first night with a wild group of new friends. Jonathan spends his first night typing endlessly on his computer, trying to talk himself through his anxiety and self-hatred. Everything changes, one day, when Jonathan overcomes his negative thoughts and agrees to go to a party with Cole... where he sees her for the first time. A story about mental illness, college, love, memories, and death. "Somewhere, close by, there must be something better than what I have here. There is something else out there for me than what I see coming toward me. Something beautiful, something worth living for. The greyness of my life will transform, suddenly, and the sun will burn through my soul and bring me to where I am supposed to be. Something like that will happen. It has to. "