Just A Little More

She is Suicidal

31. Just A Little More

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Inis na lumabas ako sa study room. Ate Sandra didn't give me a proper answer why the hell that girl would be live here.

What the hell is going on?

This is frustrating!

Ako na lang ata ang walang ideya sa mga nangyayari. Five years! It's just freaking five years and I'm already feeling left out in this family.

Damn!

I don't care what's with her and my family but fuck, why she has to stay here?

I still can't even believe that in my first day here after five years I would see her. Parang walang nangyari sa pagitan nya at pamilya ko kung makaakto sila. But hell, I don't care what kind of relationship they have. I won't give a fuck. Not anymore.

I'm done.

Bumaba ako nang makarinig ako ng ingay mula sa baba. Nakagat ko ang labi nang makita ko sya habang inaalalayan ng isang lalaki at ng pinsan ni Pia. Nagsalubong ang kilay ko, is she drunk?

"What happened to her?"

Napalingon ako sa likod nang magsalita si ate Sandra. Hindi ko napansin na bumaba rin ito.

"Hindi namin mapigilan" sambit nung lalaki.

"Hindi yan ang ibig kong sabihin''

Mukhang nasindak yung dalawa. Tss, she's scaring them.

"Kris, carry her to her room"

Agad na sumunod si Kuya Kris sa utos ni ate habang naiwan ang dalawa.

"Let's talk in the study room" sambit ni ate sa kanila.

"What?"

Nakipagtitigan ako sa kanya. Can't they talk right here?

"Why? Interested in what they're going to say?" paghahamon nya.

I clenched my fist, why would I?

Iniwan ko sila nang hindi sinasagot ang tanong nya. I don't give a fuck about her anymore. But being clueless like this is damn frustrating.

I don't know what to feel habang pinagmamasdan si Allen.

"Babe" sambit nito.

I sighed heavily before I speak.

"Why?" yun ang tanging salitang nabitawan ko.

"I'm sorry" he said again. "I was wrong, I'm sorry if I doubted you"

"What made you think I'm dating someone behind your back?" walang emosyong tanong ko.

Ibinaba ko ang kubyertos dahil tuluyan na akong nawalan ng ganang kumain. Nagawa niyang makipagtitigan sakin subalit sya rin ang unang umiiwas ng tingin.

"Lately you were acting strange" panimula niya na ikinasalubong ng kilay ko. "Even though you are with me you're mind is somewhere else. And one time.."

Mas lalong nagsalubong ang kilay ko ng bahagya siyang huminto.

"..you sent me a wrong message. You never called me 'hon', Shan" seryosong aniya na nakapagpatigil sakin.

My heart started to pound hard.

"Alam ko na ako ang nag-insist sa relasyon natin but Shan hindi ko maiwasang hindi masaktan. After talking to Reyve last night I realized she's right. You won't do such thing"

Napahigpit ang pagkakawak ko sa wineglass after he mentioned her name.
Bakit palaging involved ang taong yun?

"Shan" seryosong tawag nya sa pangalan ko.