I'm sorry...~America

Murder?

~Matthew's POV~
I crushed Tino's hand, what is this feeling? Am I shaking? I can't feel my heart beat.....am I even breathing?
Did my brother really just say that?
Does Alfie...want to murder me?

~Tino's POV~
I winced at the feeling of poor Matthew crushing my hand, but I did my best to ignore it; I had to keep talking to Alfred, finally we were getting him to open up. "Why do you want to kill your brother Alfred?" I studied his face, something is wrong....but...I just don't know what. Something in his eyes...what is it?
"I....." Alfred's voiced stalled and cracked. "Alfred why do you want to kill Matthew" I pushed on.
"Because....I....love him". There it is....pain...I can see it in his eyes, his once beautiful crystal blue eyes are filled with pain and sorrow, but what does he mean? Where did this come from? Why the hell would he claim to love his brother after admitting he wants him dead??

~Alfred's POV~
Tino isn't smiling anymore, and I'm pretty sure Matthew is slipping into a panic attack. Both appropriate reactions I guess...but I don't know what to say now....even if I tried to explain my reasons they wouldn't understand. The only people who understand are dead.

(Sorry this was suuuper short but damn I'm tired, I want to take a minute to talk to you, the reader. I by no means am depressed nor could I ever know what it's like to experience depression or any mental I'll was of any sort. If you suffer from depression of any kind I desperately implore you to speak out help, and I'm well aware some people are in a situation that it is impossible for them to get any help. So for you people out there who can't receive help I beg of you to keep on fighting until you can receive that help. I know this sounds like the same crap you've probably heard over and over and over and over again but I speak from personal experience since I have a lot of friends who suffer from depression, some of them I fear that I'm going to loose someday soon....and I hate that everyday I prepare myself for that day. I want to make everyone happy and I know that's not realistic but it's what I want, so if I can do absolutely anything to help even just one of you out there I will. Because I believe that in this world, no matter what you think there will always be at least one person who loves you, and if you can't find that person then I'll be that person, and I mean that. Thank you for reading, really, though I don't have much passion for this specific book it makes me so happy that people read it, and that's what motivates me to keep going. I love each and every single one of you and I hope you will take what I've said to heart. I hope you have a fantastic day, and an even better life. Thank you again for being right by my side through all of this time.)