I'm sorry...~America

In her eyes

⚠️WARNING, contains Nudity and sexual topics as well as abuse ⚠️
(This chapter gets steamy later so if you don't like it skip it)
~Matthew's POV~

I woke up that morning snuggled comfortably in Ailbe's embrace. I rubbed the sleep out of my eyes and smiled at him before carefully slipping out of bed and leaving his room to head back to mine. On my way up the stairs I ran into that girl again only she was trying to get into my room, knocking gently on the door and crying softly. I felt my heart sink as I approached her, "uh...miss-" she jumped back and held her hands up startled and trembling, her tight red dress was torn and she had a large black shiner on her left eye. "Please- I just want help I wasn't trying to-to break or anything..." I bit my lip and looked around, "did that guy hit you?..." she looked down ashamed and didn't answer me verbally but her reaction told me yes. "...come on let's get you cleaned up" I opened my door and snuck the poor lady into my room and put the safety lock on in case that greasy old man came to my door. "I'm sorry...I didn't know what to do..." "you don't need to apologize...come on I think I have a first aid in my bathroom. I took her into the bathroom with me and had her sit on the edge of the bathtub whilst I cleaned the dirt and grease off her face and gave her some pain medicine.
"Thank you...your so kind..." I blushed and put the pain meds away. "No I'm not really anything special...I just want to help is all" The lady smiled and pushed her hair behind her ear, "my name is Scarlet by the way...what's yours?" "Matthew.." "it's nice to meet you Matthew" she seems sweet and all but there's something about her that seems...off.
"Do you want something else to wear? That dress doesn't really look comfortable and it's...torn"
"I don't want to trouble you..." I waved her off and got some of my pajamas out of my drawer, "don't worry about it's no trouble" I walked back over to her and gave here the clothes, "if you want I can probably mend your dress" "oh please do" Scarlet stood up and pulled her dress down around her waist exposing her breasts. "Woah!" I covered my eyes and walked out of the bathroom, "what's wrong?" "Y-your naked!" "Yes? You don't mind do you? Being gay after all I don't expect you to do anything to me" "g-ga- how- why do you think I'm gay?" She chuckled and slipped my pj's on, "I'm sorry, I assumed you and the man at the front desk were together" I felt my face turn bright red and my stomach started to shift. "I..we-we're just friends that's all..." "hm but you are gay though right?" "...yes" "well then don't worry about me being naked" Scarlet walked over to me and laughed when she saw my red face. "Aw...you must really like him huh...that's sweet" "I-I don't! I told you we're just friends..." I patted my cheeks to get rid of the blushing but the pain in my gut was still there. Scarlet walked toward my door and looked out the peephole "do you mind if I stay here a while? Just until Jerry goes to work?" "Is that the greasy man?" "Yeah...he's my uh...business partner" she means her pimp I suppose. "Sure you can stay for a while...I think I'm gonna go downstairs and get some breakfast though if your okay with staying here alone" honestly I didn't want breakfast but being alone with a strange woman with an angry pimp wasn't necessarily a situation I wanted to be in. So I'm just gonna stay away and let this blow over; because I'm a coward. "I'll be okay...thank you again for helping me" I gave her a small smile and nodded before leaving and going downstairs. Instead of going to the dining room I made my way downstairs to Ailbe's room and let myself in assuming he was still asleep. "Ail-" My entire body got hot as Ailbe and I stared at each other with wide surprised eyes. Ailbe was stark naked drying his hair, he had multiple mandala tattoos on his arms and chest and he was absolutely massive...in more then one way. I felt like I was about to faint so I just turned around and closed my eyes taking a deep breath and holding onto the door. "I'm- so. Sorry I thought you were still asleep" "n-no your fine" I heard Ailbe rush back into the bathroom and close the door;I didn't move though, I was frozen from embarrassment. Why didn't I knock oh my god! He probably thinks I'm some kind of pervert shit! My mind kept shoving the image of Ailbe naked in front of my face which made me tremble, I squealed quietly and buried my face into my hands. After a minute Ailbe opened the bathroom door wearing the clothes he wore the night before  since he was in a hurry to clothe himself. "I'm uh...sorry about that I thought I locked the door" "n-no you did...I just forgot to lock it back when I left" I was still trembling uncontrollably and I wanted to kick myself for it. "...are...you gonna turn back around?" I could hear the teasing grin in his voice and I hesitantly turned back around to look at him. "Christ sake you look like a tomato, have you never seen another naked man?" I blushed harder and punched his shoulder, he winced and laughed at me. "Oh my god you haven't" "I have too! I'm over a hundred years old remember I've- ...I've seen..stuff..." I hid behind my bangs "I've never seen a naked god though..." I mumbled to myself and felt my face get hot again. "I'm just messing with ya, what did you need anyway?" "I uh..." shit what did I come down here for again? Oh right- I'm avoiding getting my ass beat by a pimp, I can't really say that though because...I don't even know how to begin explaining that to him. "I uh...thought maybe we could finish our movie..." "oh well...it wa skins a boring though...do you wanna start a new one?"
"Sure why not" I shrugged and began to relax a bit as the embarrassment started to wash away. Ailbe smiled at me and laid back down on the bed the same way he did the night prior and switched on a random movie, I sat next to him and stared at our separated hands.
"...Hey Ailbe?"
"Yeah?"
"...we're just friends right?"
"Uhm...I guess you could say that..."
I paused and picked at his sheets. "Would you say we're closer than that?..."
"...yeah I guess I would...you know since I know about your whole country thing and we've been working on getting your mental state back to normal together...and..."
"And?..."
"And well...last night we got..pretty close didn't we.."
We both sat in silence together for a minute with nothing but the buzz of the air conditioner and the beginning credits to our movie playing in the background. I looked up at the ceiling for a minute and though about last night, we almost kissed each other...and we didn't even think about it it just happened it. I've never felt anything like that before and..I did want to kiss him- shit I DO want to kiss him but...your supposed to go out on dates and stuff before you do that kind of thing. But I do like him and by god do I want him; but I don't wanna...do the wrong thing. "Matt?..." Ailbe looked down at me; "yeah?..."I didn't look at him, I couldn't. "I like you...more then a friend...I thought you were cute the moment you stepped into the hotel..." I blushed softly, still refusing to look at him. "Come on Ail...why are you confessing something like that right now..." "because I want to take you out...for a real date..." Ailbe reached over and put his hand on mine. "Matt? How do you feel about me?" I felt my heart pound hard against my chest and I finally broke and looked up at him, staring into his eyes. "I...don't make me say it I'm too embarrassed...I-I just saw you naked and...I-"
"Did you like it?..."
My face got bright red and my head felt light, "...you know I did..." "...come on Matt just tell me how you feel" I felt my lips quiver and I struggled to push out my words, god I'm such a mess around him. "I-i like you too...not just because your..gorgeous but you're really funny...and your nice to me...but I don't want to be with you because I know I'm going to loose you..." "...then why not enjoy it now?...it's not like your under oath to deny yourself happiness" I felt tears begin to well up in my eyes, "but I-" before I could object Ailbe pressed his lips against mine and my soul was set on fire. Tears slid down my cheeks as I wrapped my arms tightly around him kissing back opening my mouth to allow him to take the kiss further as his tongue engulfed mine. The sensation sent shivers down my spine as the excitement caused me to shake, he gently moved his hand up against my cheek and wiped away my tears. I leaned deeper into the kiss as well as his hands for a moment longer before pulling away to breathe, "A-Ailbe..."
"I'm sorry...I just can't wait anymore...I've wanted to kiss you for so long now...and I don't have much more time with you before you leave me..."
"If you keep this up I won't be able to..." I sniffled and wiped my eyes, "Good..." Ailbe smiled at me softly and I moved into his lap kissing him again. "I wanna make this very clear, no funny stuff until after more then one date okay?" "Can I still kiss you?" "Keep it above the chest." "Deal" Ailbe smirked and kissed me deeply wrapping his strong arms around my waist. For the first time in years, I felt myself let go and give in to my emotions in a positive way. And I love it.

~Alfred's POV~
It's been almost two weeks since I found out Christi was pregnant, and it usually takes 12 to 16 weeks to see a baby bump but it's only been five and..she has one. Her health has declined as well...the baby seems to be growing at an abnormal rate whilst Christina gets sicker and sicker, she's lost pigment in her face and she isn't eating as much as she used to, she doesn't even have the energy to work with me on her prenatal exercise's. I'm starting to get really worried about her because doctors have no clue what's happening and I'm beginning to suspect it's because I'm a country. What if this kills her or the baby? To answer my questions I took Christina with me to England to see Arthur since he considers himself an expert on everything, plus my uncle Scotland told me once that Arthur dabbled in magic and successfully cursed himself to forget how to cook even the most basic dishes; which has to be true because you couldn't cook as bad as Arthur if you tried. I helped Christina out of the car and walked her to the front door of my very first home, Arthur's home. I ran the doorbell and the door was immediately answered by a butler dressed in a fancy black tail coat. "His highness is awaiting you in his study" his highness, what a damn narcissist. I thanked the butler and went upstairs to Arthur's study. We were about half way through the long hallway when Christina stopped me and held her head, "are you okay? Christi??" "I'm fine Alfred...I just need a moment to catch my breath..." "my apologies I didn't realize Alfred brought you with him..." Arthur walked over to us and stopped when I locked eyes with him. "Just give us a minute. I'm gonna get Christi settled down in my room." I put Christina's arm around my shoulder and helped her walk to my old bedroom before helping her lay down in bed. "Just get some rest okay? I'm sorry I knew this trip would be too hard on you-" "Alfred honey I'm fine...I wanted to come and meet your dad...I'll just sleep for a while and I'll be just fine" Christina smiled at me and kissed my cheek before closing her eyes and laying her head on the pillow. I frowned and kissed her forehead before leaving the bedroom; closing the door quietly behind me. Arthur was standing outside of the door waiting for me with an uncomfortable expression. "Come on, let's go for a walk" I stared at him and stuffed my hands in my pockets unwillingly following him outside to the court yard. We walked for a while around his garden in silence before I broke it, "his highness? Is that what you ask them to call you or is that what the queen tells them to call you?" Arthur rolled his eyes and walked over to a rose bush, "Its good to see you too Alfred." Arthur picked a dead rose bud off the bush and fiddled with it, "...how long ago did you do it?" "Do what?" Arthur looked back at me, "you know." "Oh...that...five weeks ago..." Arthur looked back at the rose bush, "then it's possible she might live through it..." I felt my entire body go numb, "what...what do you mean..." "I mean she could be part of the 10%, there's a chance she may live through the pregnancy" "t-ten percent?...only ten percent?...wait-why would she even- you haven't even explained what's going on!" Arthur sighed and sat down with me on a small bench next to the roses. "A few thousand years ago some countries decided to break the rules and begin to have relationships with humans, some of them deciding to try and start families with those humans, the main one of these countries being the Roman Empire, he had plenty of wives and out of 30 of them only one of them ever had a successful pregnancy and lived to raise the child, the rest either died during or after pregnancy, taking the baby with them or giving birth to an unhealthy child who would only live for a maximum of two years. Due to the deaths of Rome's wives he decided to get together with other countries who had had human relationships and study them."
"Arthur I- as fascinating as this is I just want to know what's wrong with Christina...and if she's going to live or not..."
"Right...well they eventually broke it out into basic percents, 40% would die mid pregnancy as well as the child, 30% would die and give birth to a healthy human child, 20% would die and give birth to a "country" only...well they wouldn't be an actual existing country. And only 10 percent would actually survive giving birth to a "country" never a human baby...so I think since the baby isn't growing at as fast as a rate as the other percents, Christina may be part of the 10 percent" I buried my fave into my hands and began to weep, I truly am a monster, I destroy everything around me even the people I love. And because I fell in love I'm going to kill the love of my life with my child. Arthur put his hand on my back in an attempt to comfort me but it did nothing, Christina is going to die and there's nothing I can do about it...I don't even get to spend 9 months with her because our baby- no...our parasite is growing to fast and killing her.