I'm sorry...~America

Pain

~Alfred's POV~

After breakfast Christina asked me if we could take a walk through Arthur's garden so she could get some fresh air. Of course I can't say no to her but I was very hesitant to agree, outside she seemed much happier then she had been lately.
"Oh these flowers are beautiful Alfred...I can't believe you grew up here"
I smiled at her and held her hand tightly.
"The garden was always my favorite part of this place...Mattie and I would always rough house in the roses and come back inside covered in thorns.."
Christina giggled and leaned her head against my shoulder, "that's cute...I hope our baby is just as wild as you and Matthew." I chuckled and watched a butterfly land on a rose, "I hope so too...you know we should probably start thinking about baby names"
"But we still don't know if it's a boy or a girl?"
"Then we can just come up with names for both"
"Hm...okay I choose the boy names and you choose the girl names"
"Okay um...Well let's see there's...Sarah, Judy, Margret, Jeanie, Sally, Abby, Christine?"
"Christine is much too close to Christina it would get confusing" Christina laughed and thought for a moment. "Well for a boy there's...Timmothy, Richard, Hank or Oh! I always loved the name Joaquin I think it's a very nice name oh but Alex is nice too"
I chuckled and kissed her softly, "I like all of our options I don't know if I'll be able to choose"
"Well I-" Christina stopped and gasped holding her stomach and gripping onto me tightly.
"Christi! Are you okay? What's happening??"
"I-I'm fine...I think it's just contractions...I'll be okay..." Christina continued to cling to me as she took deep breaths in and out until the pain subsided and she relaxed.
"I think it's a boy...because he's really kicking my ass..."
"Damn babe I think that's the first time I've ever heard you swear"
"It's the first time I've ever felt something this painful..." she chuckled and I sighed i relief as she slowly went back to normal.
"Hey Alfred?" Christina held my hand again and continued to walk with me.
"Yes? What is it?"
"Would you mind me asking...what exactly happened between your parents to drive them so far apart?"
"No not at all...your part of the family now so you should probably be informed about it at some point or another..." I let out a small sigh and sat down with her on a bench.
"When I was only maybe..eh..twenty five years old- ten in country years- Arthur had a lot of problems with his siblings...mainly Scotland but Ireland and Wales hated him too since he was ya know, England, doing the stuff England did back in the 17th century, taking over half the world and shit- you get it.
Well he was...no he IS really bad with people and apologies but he was even worse back then and the only person he could really be himself around was well...me Matt and pop...but the constant stress of his collapsing relationship with his siblings was starting to get to him."
"Well why didn't he just stop conquering their land if he knew it made them so upset?"
"Because that's not how it works for us...we don't make the orders...we just carry them out and act as pawns for our respective governments. And if we don't do what we're told they lock us away and punish us...like they did to Germany back in WWII...he went against orders and was locked away until the war was over...so if Arthur had refused orders then he would have been taken away from us and then since ya know...he was married illegally to a man he couldn't really risk that.
So he followed orders and slowly became an alcoholic from the stress...and he can't hold his liquor at all, and he's an emotional drunk so it's just...a bad mix"
"Oh..." Christina held my hand tighter as I continued.
"So one day- years and years later- Francis decided it was time to get Arthur off the alcohol and...it didn't go very well, he didn't just hit my dad he beat him to the point where he drew blood...so when he sobered up and realized what he'd done he told Francis he wanted a divorce and...well that was the end of it, Francis got Matthew and Arthur got me...and Arthur never touched alcohol again...and even though Francis forgave him and so did his siblings...he never really forgave himself..."
"God..that's just terrible....but- surly they must still have some feelings left for each other right?"
"Oh no they do...but Arthur just won't admit it so they just...don't talk about it"
"....I think since Francis is here...they'll work it out"
"...I hope so" I squeezed her hand gently and watched the bee's pollinate the roses.
"I really hope so..."

~Arthur's POV~

What did I just do...why did I say that to him?
I must have sounded so desperate...Christ what am I saying this isn't important at all I need to focus on my work! But...oh damn it I can't possibly focus with Francis on my mind, I ran out of my room and called out to him. "Francis wait!"
Francis stopped and looked back at me, "what's wrong?" He jogged back over to me with a concerned look on his face. I blushed and held my arm.
"I um...just...never mind it's stupid" I turned back and grabbed the door to shut it but Francis stopped me and held it open. "Hang on- you can't just call me over then change your mind! What were you gonna say?" I grit my teeth and struggled to shut the door, "nothing! It's nothi!-" Francis pushed the door open the rest of the way suddenly causing me to fall on top of him. Both of our faces flushed bright red as I laid on top of him panting from the struggle. "Are you-"
"I just...wanted to say I don't care...if you want to do something to me..." I blushed and buried my face in his chest to hide it. Francis was quiet for a moment before picking me up and placing me on the bed shutting the door behind him, My eyes widened as got on the bed and hovered over me.
"A-anything but-"
"I won't go that far...I just want to kiss you..may I?"
I blushed intensely and closed my eyes.
"Your such a git...I don't care I told you alread-"
Francis cut me off and slipped his tongue into my mouth causing me to tense up and hold onto his shoulders. Oh no- what am I doing- this is wrong we're not together! We shouldn't be doing this- I shouldn't let him do this but I...damn I want this.
I relaxed a bit and wrapped my arms around him running my fingers through his hair exciting him more as he pushed his thigh between my legs and slid his hand up my chest. I pulled away and put my hand on his shoulders pushing him away, "no-no this is wrong we're...we're divorced this isn't proper at all" Francis frowned at me and sat up.
"It doesn't need to be proper...we love each other that's all that matters..."
"No- we don't love each other we...we just-"
"Do you not love me Arthur?..."
".....I do..."
"Well I love you...I always have..." Francis gently pressed his lips against mine and rand his hand along my neck causing me to open my mouth; I can't say no to him, when he touches me I'm absolutely useless. Our tongues locked for a moment before Francis pulled away and kissed my neck gently.
"A-ah~ Francis...mgh~" I gasped as he sucked on my neck roughly leaving a hicky behind.
"Your so cute Arthur...I do love you...so much"
I felt tears well up in my eyes just before I burst into tears and held onto Francis tightly as he kissed them away.