Electric Current: Not Past

I Promise I'm Changing

"Hey Shinsou."

The soft smile I received in response to my greeting made all of my stress fade away. Out of all the recent changes going on in my life, Shinsou was still the same. With his unruly lavender locks and warm eyes outlined in black from his insomniac tendencies.

"I've missed you..."

He chuckles and I blush bright red when I realize I said that out loud. All too soon, his soft laughter ceases and he's staring at the screen with a serious look I know all too well.

"You've been crying."

"Way to state the obvious," I wanted to say but I instead just shrugged. We haven't spoken in over a month and I really didn't want to spend our first real time together talking about myself. So instead, I curled deeper into my comforter and changed the subject.

"So.. How's class been going?"

He sighs, but accepts the change of subject without another word. I watch as a pale pink brightens his cheeks. His gaze stays focused on his twiddling fingers, a nervous habit he probably picked up from me.

"I've been hanging out with Jirou lately. It was very lonely without you here, Denki... Today she.. Well.."

I found this flustered, stuttering version of Shinsou adorable, but it didn't stop the hurt from slicing into my heart when he finally managed to speak.

"She asked me on a date."

Words started leaving my mouth before I could stop them, "And what did you say?"

Shinsou shifted in his bed and shrugged nonchalantly, though I could tell the situation made him uncomfortable.

"You don't ha—"

"I said no." He interrupted.

His answer surprised me. If they were friends and had been hanging out a lot more, didn't that mean he tolerated her presence? On top of that, Jirou is one of the prettiest girls in our class. In my opinion, at least.

They have similar taste in music and are both loners, so they'd be a perfect match. And, though it hurt to think about, I would be happy if he was happy.

"ki... Y! Denki?!"

I flinched at his loud tone and met his indigo eyes through the screen. His eyes softened and he asked again, "Are you alright? You seem kinda off.."

Church always made me feel down and emotionally drained and finding out that I couldn't talk to Zei anymore only made it that much worse.

It also didn't help that Monoma was there and he was the person behind the cruel and threatening texts. It made me even more confused and left room for many more unanswered questions.

'Yeah, I'm just tired. It has been a long day." I say with a tight smile. 

I don't want him to worry. Especially not over me of all people.

"Denki."

The smile I'd been mastering for weeks was still firmly in place when I looked back up at him.

"Everything will be okay."

"I know everything will be alright." I reassure with that same smile.

I doubt it was very believable with my tear-stained face and smeared mascara, but he only shook his head.

"I'll be here waiting." He murmured, eyes holding mine.

There was nothing but truth in his gaze. He would wait for me, even if I wouldn't be back for another few weeks. Or months. I didn't dare think past that.