It was early sunday morning, the first time I had ever fainted.
It was during a soccer practice.
I don't really remember much, but I could only see white, and I stumbled forward, and fell.
It turned out that I might be anemic, and my mom started to think I was bulimic. I have no idea how they correlated with each other.
She had said that we needed to go to the doctors, and I had to get a blood test.
I was scared, and I just needed someone to talk to. You know? (Because of the needles)
I was so tired of thinking that there is something wrong with me.
Why?
Why am I suddenly anemic?
Why does my mother think I'm bulimic?
Why does everyone suddenly think I have a disorder?
Why can't I talk to you without freezing?
Why am I fading?
Why can't you hear me?
"When I close my eyes and try to sleep, I fall apart, I'm fighting hard to breathe, you're the reason, the only reason, Even though my dizzy head is numb, I swear my heart is never giving up,
You're the reason.
The only reason."
-The Only Reason, 5 Seconds of Summer
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Teen Fiction(Completed but not edited) Everything lies within tangled webs. Feelings, thoughts, truth. You can try to lie. Fake a smile. But you can't fake your feelings. You can't fake how you feel, and even if you try, it never works. Or else you explode i...
