It was almost opening night.
I almost let it get to me.
Rehearsals till 11:30 made sure I got no sleep.
Homework til 3:00 definitely made sure I got no sleep.
You most definitely made sure I got no sleep.
Every year during the musical, Raina would always tell me how I had huge mood swings.
But then with you, I started to believe her.
If you smiled at me and waved, I'd be happy the whole day.
If you didn't, I'd be depressed the whole day.
I really just wanted to burn that whole idea.
I wanted that idea to burn, and let the flames rise, as it turned to ashes.
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Didn't you ever have this feeling?
The feeling of getting so angry, depressed...frustrated...lost.
And you want to break something,
just to destroy something,
You want to be capable of controlling something,
You want to be capable to do it on your own.
Anything.
Everything.
So when you can burn the idea,
you feel control...finally.
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What I Meant
Teen Fiction(Completed but not edited) Everything lies within tangled webs. Feelings, thoughts, truth. You can try to lie. Fake a smile. But you can't fake your feelings. You can't fake how you feel, and even if you try, it never works. Or else you explode i...
