I had just been falling, deeper, and deeper.
And it was getting harder and harder to catch myself.
Who do you think you are?
How can you just mess up everything. Me.
I was lost. Confused. Sad. Unhappy. Depressed.
But why?
Just because I didn't know if you liked me anymore?
Yeah. That's exactly why I felt like I forgot how to run, walk, swim.
I was drowning. And it was all thanks to you.
I wouldn't...couldn't tell you.
I just...I was just so complicated.
You just had to be there, make me like you, then have me fall deeper and deeper, for you to not catch me.
I know.
I was selfish, stubborn, complicated, I was just so sad, though.
And I felt like I should give up.
But I couldn't.
It was relentlessly haunting me in the back of my mind.
I felt like...
like exploding.
I felt like my feelings were trapped in a balloon, that was about to explode, and it felt heavy, and I couldn't let it go, but one day, it would just explode, and there would be a mess, that I couldn't clean, and you woudn't feel like how I felt.
It hurt.
It was like I took one step off of the cliff, and no one, no one was going to catch me, because they already left.
And then there were those people, who were just smiling, or even trying too hard, but they were happy, but I was unhappy.
But you couldn't see that, not unless I poured my heart out, dumped it on the floor, prepared myself for those expectations and rejection
I had nothing left to lose.
Yet, I had everything to lose.
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Teen Fiction(Completed but not edited) Everything lies within tangled webs. Feelings, thoughts, truth. You can try to lie. Fake a smile. But you can't fake your feelings. You can't fake how you feel, and even if you try, it never works. Or else you explode i...
