his goofy grin

suicidal vampire!🐺

nova pov:

awkward would be an understatement alice is by the door away from paul, i'm sitting on the porch steps, and paul's standing behind me and i can feel his eyes on me but i ignore him not wanting to talk about the cliffs i turn my head to look at him and whatever he was gonna say was cut off by a gasp i look over to see alice dazed out i stood up and walked over to her "alice? what did you see?" she looks at me worriedly then drags me back into the house i grab paul's hand and intertwined our fingers "bella! bella! it's edward. he thinks your dead rosalie told him why i came here" bella turns to jake "why would you-why wouldn't you let me speak to him!?" bella shouts "he didn't ask for you!" jake shouts back "i don't care!" she yells while alice trys to get her attention "bella.BELLA he's going to the volturi...he wants to die too" i gasp and squeeze paul's hand tighter alice speeds to the car while bella,jake,paul and i run out "he left you bella.he didn't want you anymore! remember?" jake protests "no.i'm not gonna let him kill himself out of guilt" i zoned out and that's when it hit me he's gonna kill himself and bella's going after him..if she does i can't be mad at her because i would do the same. but if she gets hurt i would never forgive my self knowing i could have stopped her i snap out of my thoughts hearing bells slam the door shut "please bella" jake reaches in the door "just stay here,for charlie,for me,even for nova" "i have to go" she whispers "i'm begging you.please" he whispers back "goodbye jacob" he gets away from the car "bella" i go up to the window "if your here to stop me or tell me this is a bad idea i have to do this.i have to save him he's my life without him i'm totally lost" i look her in the eye "you get back here...and you get back here safe i need my best friend and my best friends annoying boyfriend" i smile lightly and she returns it. i back away from the car and they drive off "why didn't you stop her?!" jake asks "because she's doing this for someone important to her and somewhat important to me and you just have to accept your not the only one she cares about because there's other people too" he starts breathing heavily "watch yourself jacob" paul warns him "you let her go when she can get killed and for a stupid bloodsucker!" now i start breathing heavily and got in his face "you better watch what comes out of your mouth next jacob because i care about him just as much as i care about you too,maybe not as close as bella but i consider him and his family as mine and they treat me the same way wether you like it or not so you can go shift or go somewhere else and you can talk shit about them but i will not let you talk bad about them in front of me!" i shout at the end he grunts and goes to shift before running into the woods i snap out of whatever i was in and i get lightheaded and really hot and i would have fallen backwards if paul wouldn't have caught me "woah woah woah you okay nov?!" "yeah i just feel really hot can you take me back to my place?" i mumble "yeah come on let's go"

*****

we arrive at my house and and we walk through the door "where are your parents?" he asks "at work" he nods and we go upstairs i go into the bathroom to change and come back and get under the covers and lay down he goes to leave but i stop him "stay with me?" i ask and i can see the grin he's trying to hide "yeah of course" he takes his shoes of and gets on my bed and covers and i lay on his chest and close my eyes hoping bella would be ok and then focusing on his warmth,my imprint.my soulmate.and falling asleep to his beautiful heartbeat

*****

i woke up to no one beside me but a note on my night stand
had patrol to do see you soon beautiful-paul
i smile and slightly blush at the name
it was a few days later after bella went to save edward and it was in the evening when bella said she wanted to discuss something with me and the cullens so that's where i am now,just stepping outside my truck and before i could knock on the door rose answers and immediately crushes me into a hug "i've missed you and i'm sorry we left-" i stop her "hey it's ok i understand. that goes for all of you" i say walking up to the rest of them knowing they heard me and giving all of them a hug and lastly i go up to edward "look at that!edweirdo lives to see another day" i grin he rolls his eyes with a smile and hugs me "glad to see you never change" he smirks i shove his shoulder "ok so the reason i called you guys here tonight...i want your vote to become a vampire" i stare wide eyes at bella,mouth slightly open i'm sorry WHAT!? "alice?" alice walks up to bells and gives her a hug "i already consider you my sister" jasper speaks up "i vote yes. it would be nice not wanting to kill you all the time" i cringe a little at that rose speaks " i'm sorry.i'm really sorry both of you for how i've acted,and i'm really great full you went to go save my brother.but this isn't a life i would have chosen for myself and i wish that there'd been someone to vote 'no' for me so no" "i vote hell yeah" emmet walks up to her and spins her around "and we can pick a fight with these volturi some other way" "i already consider you part of the family" esme speaks up "yes" carlisle sighs and walks up to edward "why are you doing this to me?" he questioned reading his fathers thoughts "you know what this means" "you've chosen not to live without her which leaves me no choice i won't loose my son" "nova?" bella asks and all eyes were on me well fuck! my opinion is everywhere!i want her to be happy but i see where edwards coming from.will she be safe? of course not! human or not this world is unpredictable but i'm not losing my best friend,my sister i look at edward with sympathy and he sighs knowing my answer a grin broke out on my face and bella looked relieved "yes"
i stayed at the cullens a little longer before leaving to my house. i got to me room and i started to get really hot again like yesterday night so i decided to take my temperature.
"what the hell??" i mumbled

'108 degrees'

a/n: BOOM! cliffhanger (kinda) soooo that's the end of new moon! for those of you who actually read these eclipse is coming soon and there will be more "scenes" of nova and paul and the wolf pack (that she may become apart of👀)