Secrets (DreamNotFound)

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TW's:
-Mentions self harm/self hate

BadBoyHalo's POV

I stepped out of the plane and checked out. I dried my tears and directly went to the bathroom. I had to check everything, I didn't want anyone to find me ugly. I had to make sure my hair was good. Did I have to keep my glasses on? Or did I have to take them off? Would they like me better without? I decided to keep them on, since I wouldn't be able to see a lot otherwise. I put some water on my hair and sighed deeply. Would Skeppy still want to be my friend after we meet up? Or would he think I'm the ugliest person he had ever seen.

I left the bathroom and walked towards gate A, they texted us that they were already there. I hoped they wouldn't see I cried, but I had to go now. They knew I landed and they waited. I didn't know whether Skeppy was already there, but I hoped he was. I wanted to meet him, even though I was most insecure about meeting him.

I looked around me to see whether I saw someone or not and I startled when I saw Skeppy standing. He was looking at me. There was no one around him, where were the others? I stood completely still and Skeppy started running towards me.

'Bad!'

'Skeppy,' I whispered.

He ran towards me and directly hugged me tightly. 'Bad, I'm so happy to meet you. Are you okay? You look sad. What's wrong?'

He grabbed my hands, but I pulled away. He came too close to my wounds. He looked at my arms and I startled when he grabbed my wrists. 'Why did you pull away?'

He grabbed my shoulders and I winced, I was completely bruised.

'Did I hurt you with that? How?'

'Nothing, come let's go to the others.'

'No, wait.'

'Why?'

'Show me your arms.'

'No, why? I'm cold. Don't do that.'

'It's freaking summer, Bad.'

'Skeppy? We just met up, let's go to the others, okay? Why aren't you with the others?'

Skeppy watched his feet. 'I was just scared.'

'Scared? What's wrong?'

'I sometimes get a little anxious in crowds and I liked having some time alone before going to them and I wanted to meet you first.'

I hugged him again and I suddenly heard Skeppy softly sob.

'What's wrong?'

'You know you can tell me everything right?' he whispered. 'Bad, can I please just check your arms?'

'Why so suddenly?'

'Because you pulled away so quickly, have you hurt yourself?'

'No, I haven't.'

'Let me please just check then.'

I started slowly walking away, I saw Dream.

'Dream!' I yelled.

Skeppy looked at me in pure sadness. 'Bad, why-.'

'Hey guys,' Dream said. He walked closer to us and hugged me and Skeppy. Skeppy smiled softly, but I saw the disappointment in his eyes.

'Come,' Dream said and he pointed to all others. Niki had already arrived too and we would go to our house with us seven. The others would come later. Dream apparently already called three Ubers. George, Dream and Sapnap went together, Niki and Fundy and I was left with Skeppy. We stood in front of each other awkwardly and I had the sudden need to tell him everything. The only thing holding me back was that I absolutely didn't dare telling it.

Skeppy looked at me and grabbed my hands again. 'Bad, you know I love you right? You know you can tell me everything in this whole world and you know I would never get mad at you, right?'

'I know.'

'So why do you keep lying?'

'It's way more difficult than you think it is.'

We stepped into our Uber and sat down in the back. We greeted the chauffeur and Skeppy looked at me again.

'What is more difficult than I think?'

'It's not just what you think.'

'I don't think anything, I'm just very worried.'

'It's just- I can't say it. I don't dare to. Let's just forget about it okay?'

'No, we talk later when we are alone.'

'Maybe.'

'Bad, promise it. Promise we will talk about this later, because I'm worried as hell.'

'Okay, fine. I promise.'

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