Secrets (DreamNotFound)

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TW's:
-Mentions a lot of mental issues (short)

George's POV

Punz immediately made a face and looked at us. We let go of each other, and I stood up slowly.

'Why are you guys leaving to freaking kiss?'

'Because you beat us up when we kiss in front of you.'

'Listen, I have a reason for it. I'm also going to leave after today. You probably don't care but I'm not okay.'

'Why?'

'I have DID, dissociative identity disorder.'

'What's that?'

'I have multiple personalities. I know this sounds like a dumb excuse and it doesn't make up for anything I did, but I just- I can't help it. I change sometimes and after a while I have no idea what and why I did something. Me, Punz I'm not homophobic, my other personality is.'

I looked at him, he looked genuine. It didn't seem like he was lying this time.

'I'm sorry to hear that,' I said.

'It's doesn't make up for anything, and I'm very aware of that. I should have never beaten you up, I should have never sworn at you, I- I have PTSD too, I have been abused by two boys in the past. They kicked me into hospital and I have nightmares about it, so extremely often. I struggle with self harm, with suicidal thoughts. I'm sorry for what I have done, I just wish I could control myself, but I can't. I'm just a different person when something happens. I hate myself, I don't want to be like this. I want to be loving and caring, but sometimes I just change to homophobic, mean and an absolute dick. After all this happened I decided to go home and seek for help.'

I smiled at him. 'I'm so sorry to hear this, this must be awful for you.'

'I'm so sorry too,' Dream said. 'Are you just the normal Punz at this point?'

He nodded. 'And I'm so sorry for everything I have done.'

I gave him a hug and Dream entered too. We hugged for a while and Punz bursted into tears. 'I'm so sorry.'

He pulled his shirt over his head and started walking away.

'I'm leaving now. I wanted to say this to you before I went to catch my flight.'

'Do the others know?'

'Can you tell them? I have to go now.'

I nodded. 'Of course. Stay safe, dude. We will miss you.'

And we were left behind together. Dream looked at me and then grabbed my hands.

'Maybe I am ready now.'

'For what?'

'George, do you want to be my boyfriend?'

I giggled softly as I nodded. 'Of course, Dream. You really think I'm going to say no now?'

'You never know it with you,' he giggled as he kissed my cheek.

'Are you okay though, after what your parents did.'

I saw him softly nod. 'I guess, it always hurts when they act like this. Well, they disowned me so I will never see them again. How are your parents with this?'

'I have no idea. They weren't that strict but they also never helped me with my eating disorder. I guess I didn't tell them, but they didn't even try and figure things out.'

'Do you want to keep this a secret?'

'Well, it's not that secretive anymore, since already everyone here knows, but for my parents. Yes please.'

The conversation was followed by a hug and we stared at each other.

'You're so extremely beautiful,' Dream whispered. 'I wish you would see it yourself too, you're absolutely gorgeous.'

'You're just gay.'

'Oh, shit off. Says the one kissing me.'

'But on a serious note, are you bi or gay?'

'I really don't know anymore.'

'Well, maybe you will find out after I kiss you.'

Dream grinned. 'Let's try.'

I grabbed his shoulders to pull him close and pressed my lips on his. This kiss felt way better than every other kiss. We were in a relationship now, it wasn't weird anymore, both not knowing what we were doing. We both were in love and I got to call him my boyfriend. I was so happy with it, I couldn't even believe it. A month ago everyone was planning on going on this holiday together, me with my best friends. And now, I'm here kissing my boyfriend. Could life be more perfect?

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