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Chapter 38

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Jaden's POV-

"You promise?"

"I already promised you 10 times Em." I slightly laugh. She just shakes her head, moving closer to me if that was even possible. She was nervous, all her movements gave her away.

"I promise I'm not going to leave you, treat you like a fragile piece of glass, treat you any differently, or tell anyone. I wouldn't do that to you, you know that."

"I know." She mumbles.

"Then stop worrying about it. You've been at it for the past hour. I said I would forget about last night unless you needed me or wanted to talk about it and I plan on keeping that."

"You're not gonna leave?"

"Never."

A faint 'good' leave her mouth and we fall into a sea of silence. Last night was something I'm glad happened but never want to relive. The only thing we did that night was sit in the freezing cold for a few hours before going back to Em's and laying in bed doing and saying absolutely nothing. Neither of us wanting to talk. She only started asking questions around an hour ago and we been carrying a lite conversation since.

I'm glad she opened up to me, I really am. I'm glad things are slowly getting easier for the both of us and i'm over the moon she is starting to really trust me with what she thinks. She isn't this reserved girl I met in Biology anymore and that's something I couldn't be more proud of.

The past few months i've noticed a lot of different things but the thing that strike me the most is the way she thinks. She isn't like everyone else when it comes to that.

She doesn't think of what color lipstick to wear or what outfit she looks best in. She much rather think about what the world looks like and how that makes her feel. She doesn't care about this things that most people do, she thinks about what's important and honestly, it's truly beautiful.

She fucking stunning.

Every inch of her, inside and out. I love the way her black hair falls onto her back so effortlessly or the way she moves her hands when she is explaining things or her smile.

I don't understand how people think she is this freak when reality, she is beautiful.

She's gone through a lot and she still is here and for that, I couldn't be more proud of her.

"You know something?" I mumbles as I slowly move my fingers up and down her arms.

"Hmm."

"You're insanely strong and I'm really proud of you for it."

"I would barley call it that" She snorts.

"No Em, I'm serious. I'm proud of you, I really am."

"I am the worst person you probably know Jaden."

"Emilia, I swear to god, you are not stop it."

"My past controls my life, I can barley stain myself without someone else help, hell I can't even go to school without fully breaking down at least once." She counters in full confidence, it makes my blood boil.

"Look at me."

When she makes no effort to move, keeping her head rested on my chest, my hand swoops down, lightly forcing her face to face me, causing her eyes to dart to mine.

"I will say this as many times as I have to in order to get into that little brain of yours, understood. Don't ever talk about yourself like that. You mean world to me, you are one of the down you earth, prettiest girl I have ever met. Your mental health doesn't effect what I think of you and whoever fucking thinks that needs to have something checked. I'm proud of everything you have done Em, I'm extremely proud of you for opening up to me last night. Thank you but don't ever think you mean anything less to me than my entire world. Are we clear?"

A pair of bright green eyes stare back at me in awe but I never heard the words I wanted to hear. We both just sat there, legs tangled, hair disheveled, tired eye, both just looking at each in complete awe but for two different reasons.

"Em, are we clear."

"You really mean it?"

"Of course I fucking mean it. You have been nothing but a light in my life and I don't know what i'd do with out. I really don't. I've never had a dull moment when i'm with you, even if that's when we are just relaxing. I'm not ever wondering about anyone else. It's always you. Whether you actually ate today or how you are doing. What have you painted today or How was your day? You constantly part of my day even if you physically aren't. Em, when I say you mean the world to me, I mean I wouldn't know what to do without you. I'm really proud of you, you don't have to doubt that because I don't see you as this weakling, I see you has this warrior. We may have only know each other since September but fuck with that. Time doesn't mean nothing when whatever I feel towards is 100 percent real. So of course I fucking meant it. Don't ever doubt when I say I love you because holy fuck Emilia, I'm obsessed with you."

"Wait what?"

"I love every inch of you Em."

You could hear a pin drop on the floor on how quiet the room got. It was like the world around us stopped. Everything was still there and moving like the car driving by the faint basement window or the pastel smiley face hanging the wall right above her easel. Everything seemed to keep going but time. What the fuck did I just do.

"Em-"

"Why" She cuts me off, a forming of tears lining her eyes. "Why now."

"What?"

"Why today?Why after everything that has happened, Why now?"

Why now? Why the fuck would I say that now when I don't know if- Why would I say that out of all time I would let it spill out now. We aren't even dating.

I know why actually. I know exactly why I said it.

"Because Em, what if I never get to say it? What if I never get to let you know, it will break me."

"Seriously?" She mumbles, the look in her eyes inevitable, she needs validation.

"I meant every word."

"Jaden." She doesn't say anything else but she just looks at me, tears slowly escaping her eyes. I never thought i'd actually say that to her face. so effortlessly before. I know why I said it but I even surprised myself but I mean every word of it. I truly do love her. Woah.

When I feel a slight shift to my right, I bring my eyes down from the ceiling to the girl who was clinging to me like kola, which was nothing new, but she had a faint smile on her face and tears in her eyes and that's when I knew, this was it.

"You know I can't say it back Ja." She whispers. I move down so my face is level with hers and I wrap both of my arms around her waist, pulling her closer.

"I know Em."

"Then yes, we are clear."

A/N- I missed writing so much. Also, I just figured out the ending of this and i'm super excited for it:)

Also, I give this chapter a 5/10. I didn't expect that to happen today, it just did and I kinda like it kinda don't:)

okay I love you:)