for me,

Fallen

there will come a time in our lifetime together that i will run from you.
i will run from you the moment your eyes meet mine, i will run from you the second my curious thoughts drift easily to you, i will run from you just as your hand rise up to shake mine and just before i hear my name roll softly from your tongue.
and maybe i would have refused to back then, maybe if i was already broken & afraid - i wouldn't have even dared to let you touch me.

because you touched me so tenderly.
you grasped me so lovingly.
and you held my heart like it was fragile.

yes, maybe i would have been rid of all those if i had chosen to look away. to walk away before you could even say a word.
and i am not saying these because i regret loving you.
no, no darling.
i am saying these because
i regret being loved by you.

because being loved by you means that i was raised up higher than the Heavens and put unto God's hands.
being loved by you means that there will never be a day where i will not utter your name, where my heart will never stop whispering and aching for you.
being loved by you means that i will have to go by every single day of my life, knowing that i was so loved.
i was so loved and loved by you - which is the most healing and heartbreaking thing in this World.

and yet, through it all, you weren't even mine to hold forever.
i should have known.
a fallen angel like you could never be anyone's.

- is