for me,

Gone

Inside my mind, I am rotting...rotting away. I haven't felt like myself in such a long time. I think she's gone. The parts of me I loved, the parts of me I used to worship, the parts of me that shined brighter than the sun.

The later the nights that I sleep, the more restless my thoughts became.

It is like a boulder is being lifted from the darkness that I hide away.

Even in my effort to settle the water swarming inside, inside, of me - there is nothing I feel. Nothing.

Where did the love go?

Where did she go?

All the kind thoughts.

Maybe I am ruined. Maybe I have ruined myself.

And even as I try to run away from the heartbreak that I've given myself - that ghost still won't leave me alone.

He is everywhere. Why won't he leave me?

He haunts each festered thought and he begs for attention.

I don't need you anymore, sadness.

In turn, you manifested into rage.

And I am constantly exploding. Every chance I get - I grieve the darkness inside of me.

Inside of me.

She is no longer here, I fear...

I guess it's time to create somebody new.

But I am so tired now.

I cannot even cry.

Is this how you felt?

I hope you're as despaired as I am.

I don't want to apologise. She's no longer here.