for me,

My Love

"when i think about the forever in Love, i think of the blueblue sky. i once wrote 'i cannot help but feel eternal freedom under the blue sky' and this moment of truth only reminds me that i am so much more than just a body of atoms exploring the adventures of life & helplessly trying to find its meaning.

if i were, per say, to resist and restrict the limitations of being human then what does it mean for me when i (too) restrict the unlimitless feeling that is Love?
would it not be better if i were to Love freely and with no limitations as to how much i should love a person or a thing if they were to make me happy?
i've awakened more than i have felt sleep and after so long, i realize that what is the purpose of living if it is not to feel Love and be Loved?
is it not the Love of a God that i am breathing here today?
that every death is met with pain,
but so is birth.
that of course living can never be easy but it can be filled with meaning?

and i'm sorry that i have the need to apologize for loving but if i can tell my angels & the faeries of how big and deep my Love has been then i will no doubt be sure that they will praise me for it.
i'm not the one whose afraid of my capabilities, you are.
i'm not the one who actively block the parts of me that are begging to let go and yearning to be free.
i am free.
i am eternal.
i am Love.
and if only you stop telling your thoughts to let go of me,
if only you start accepting that this is real,
that i'm not going to be here forever - that the moment my Love has gone and surpassed into the unliving
then would you then have regretted those thoughts?
would you then have wasted your moments, wishing that it was spent on telling me that you love me, that you appreciate me, that you wish you had valued me, that you wish you had asked for more and that you wish you weren't so afraid to say what truly matters to you?
please.
do not live your live in full regrets.
thats the least i want for you.
a mother once said, 'if you ever had to choose between someone who gives you what you want and someone who gives you Love - then choose Love.'

it's not always about the emotion but its feeling.
maybe you think i'm crazy or obsessed or delusional, maybe you think i just have nothing better to do.
but i'm not the one living the half life.
i only want to simply love just as.
i want to love anyone who deserves it, and show it.
i want to tell them how much i value them, how much i appreciate them.
because atleast, at the end of the day, i know if God were to take my last breath away - the very least is that you know how much i have loved, you've seen and felt the depth of it.
that is most enough for me.
what is it for you?"

- just let me love you peacefully // is