WITHOUT YOU [draco malfoy fanfiction]

3. alone

DRACO:

As days passed, my parents started to get more and more "busy". Even though I already knew what the reason was, I wished they cared enough to come and speak to me about it.

I used to meet up with Caleb, Blaise and all the guys regularly because sitting around at the Manor was fucking boring. One day when I came home early since dumbass Goyle had spilt firewhisky on my shoes and shirt, I saw my parents sitting in the drawing room talking to Yaxley, who I recognised and some other man I didn't know in hushed voices. My mother almost jumped when she saw me enter.

"Draco, we weren't expecting you to come home until later dear"

"Well mom I'm sorry if I'm disturbing your little group over there. I'll be in my room. Thanks"

"That's not what I meant dear you're more than welcome to join us"

"If that were true you wouldn't be so shocked when I entered the house, besides no I don't really want to be around here mum. I just wish one of you would actually have had the decency to come and tell me what the hell is going on"

"Draco I-

I didn't let her complete what she was about to say and stormed into my room. I was tired of feeling so lonely in this big ass house. I had started realising over time that my father wasn't exactly the best in the world and suddenly started feeling stupid for whining "my father will hear about this" about every single thing. Because he did nothing except tell me how incapable I was of upholding the honour of the family name. Bullshit. Like he was doing wonders. All he did was criticise me, no appreciation and that made me loathe him.

I was in my room fuming when my mother knocked on my door gently. She pulled me into a hug and started whispering in my ear "I love you Draco I hope you know that. I never meant for you to feel neglected" that did make me feel better, because I know I didn't show it but I needed affection too. Then mum stood up straighter and said "Your father and I will talk to you just like you wanted. You can meet us at the kitchen counter when ready"

So they've finally realised they have a son at home. I ruffle my hair, making them messier, my father hates it and that always puts me in a good mood. I head down to hear what they have to say to me now.

My father was seated at the head of the table when I came down to meet them and my mother was sitting toward his right. I take a seat across my father on the opposite side because honestly I don't think I can bear being seated that close to him. He makes a face and glares, but I don't care.

"So what did you wanna talk about?" I ask them

"As you must have noticed Draco there are some changes that are taking place around the house"

"clearly" I say not trying to sound neglected and angry

"We would like you to know that the Dark Lord is back and we will know be working for him full-fledgedly from now on" Lucius looks at me like his done with what he has to say and now is waiting for me to react to this.

"What about me?" A low voice escapes my throat

"What about you Draco?" Lucius asks as if he's annoyed with me for bringing myself into this

"You thought I wanted to hear this from you? Don't you think I already had that figured out? I wanted you to talk to me about how it was gonna change things for all of us, whether you would leave me alone more often than you already do? Or it didn't occur to you that you do have a son?" I was standing now and taking fast, deep breaths in anger. It took everything to hide what I was really feeling...... hurt.

"Draco we surely wouldn't leave you- my mother begin to say but my father cut her off

"At a time like this all you are thinking about is yourself? How selfish can you be Draco?" my father looked at me in disgust

"How could I not?" I was shouting now " I'm the only one doesn't have a choice! I didn't choose to live like this! I never wanted to get involved with the Dark Lord! You did and I want nothing to do with it! Yet I'm stuck in this situation and you try to make me feel guilty by calling me selfish for thinking about myself?" I was glaring with bloodshot eyes at him

"Draco... Draco my baby-

I looked over at my mother and it broke me. She had tears in her eyes and was looking guiltily at me. She was the only one who actually loved me, who didn't care about the fucking family name, who actually considered me her son. But at that moment all I could do was bring her into a hug and say nothing.

Lucius had still said nothing and he just sat there with his face blank

"I'm telling you this for the last time I want no in with your lot. I will not get involved in whatever you'll be doing"

I gave my mother's hand a squeeze and began to back to my room when Lucius called after me "you will also be meeting your aunt Bella soon Draco"

My steps froze there. If she was even half as bad as how everyone described her..... this isn't going to end well.

"Will she be staying with us?"

"For the time being yes" my mother answered

I started walking to my room again without saying a word.

I had never seen Aunt Bella. She was in Azkaban all this time , I don't know how was she getting out but I'm sure it's because the dark lord is back. My mother, her own sister talked about her like she was crazy. I remember my mother saying "All your aunt lives for is following what the Dark lord says and she can do anything for him willingly". Aunt Bella had tortured Neville's parents and they are never able to recover. I sometimes do feel bad for him although I would never tell him that. My mother has another sister, Andromeda. Although she claims that she has nothing to do with her now but I know she sometimes wonder if she could have also done what Andromeda did, whether if even she could have chosen a completely different path and stand up for herself? Sometimes I even find myself wondering that...

My mind is too caught up right now, I need a distraction. So, I call Pansy Parkinson over.

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"Hi Draco missed me?" she bites her lip

"Get in Pansy"

"I was wondering if-

I cut her off mid sentence

"shhh..... no talking" I say as I grab her waist and bring her closer to me

She lets out a gasp

"Draco- .... She says slowly

I undress her without another thought and put out her on my bed while removing my shirt.

I get on top of her, and graze my teeth along her neck. She moans with pleasure. I smirk.

She tries to kiss me but I continue to take my teeth around her body.

I'am going to regret this later. I always do. But right now all I can do is go deeper inside her.

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"I thought um.. that I could stay the night"

"No you can't. I already told you that" I say in a stern voice.

"But you always do this"

"yes Pansy so you shouldn't be asking this question all the time" I raise my voice a little

She looks pained but slowly gets up and gets dressed..... and then she's gone.

thankyou so much for reading the third chapter!!!

I always felt bad when there was no part in the book mentioning where Draco struggles to adapt to the new normal of his house and him meeting with bellatrix since she was in Azkaban all this time. I tried to do justice to that part here. Tell me how you feel about this plot

Also I did not want the part between Draco and Pansy to be very passionate since Draco clearly doesn't feel anything about it

Big things are coming up for Irene and Draco next!!!!