WITHOUT YOU [draco malfoy fanfiction]

22. ran away

ZOE:

"Okay. Start" Irene urged me.

I took a deep breath and began explaining the most drama I had ever experienced in my life in the span of weeks.

"I have had a little thing for Nora for a while now"

"I know that, go on" she gave me a smile.

"What the hell lady? How'd you know?"

"Quite easy to figure out. You started taking efforts for her, like dressing up for the party, asking study related questions which you never do, finding excuses to hang out with her. Doesn't take a lot of brains to figure out what was going on babe"

"Why didn't you say something?"

"I wanted you guys to have your space. I felt that you needed to be ready to tell me, instead of me being a nosy bitch"

"I do appreciate that you know" Irene smiled at me and gestured me to continue.

"The night of the party, we um kissed"

"I think the entire Hogwarts saw that babe"

"No no, we really kissed. After the party I was crazy drunk and she held on to me, we fooled around until we kissed. It was the best feeling ever. Irene, you probably don't know but I've always known that I don't want to get into guy shit. I've known I've liked girls since I was 13 years old and I have never shied away from expressing that. But never ever have I felt what I feel when I'm around Nora. She makes me want to do better, I want to keep making her laugh, I want to spend all my time with her, I don't care if we are naked or not, I just- just want her with me" a small tear runs across my cheek and when I look up at Irene I expect her to laugh at me, laugh at the stupid girl who could not pretend being the bad bitch. Instead, I see her wiping her eyes as well.

"Zoe" she says ever so lightly, "I think you love her"

I expect myself to react wildly, to ridicule Irene to assume such a thing about me, I want to remind her that I've never known love before, but I guess there is a first for everything. I close my eyes and say the words I've been scared accept for so long:

"I think I do. I love Nora" a smile forms on my lips when I say the words. I do not regret admitting to it. I'm proud of myself for feeling love, I've always heard it's a beautiful feeling but until now I was oblivious to it, I thought it was an illusion to make people believe in something. But now, as I get familiar to this feeling I never want to be deprived of it. I want to love Nora, and I want her to love me. But I don't think it's possible anymore.

"I'm happy you found love Zoe, I really am" Irene smiles at me with sincere eyes.

"Anyway, let's move on to the part where my heart is broken like a bitch"

Irene does not say anything so I take it as a cue to continue.

"After we kissed, Nora ran out of the bathroom stall. The next day, Nora starts completely ghosting me. she fucking didn't even acknowledge me."

"Ouch"

"Yeah. Hurts like a bitch"

"But I saw you both together in my dorm-

"Oh that day!" I exclaim sarcastically

"That was the fine day Nora told me she wanted to be friends and I told her I liked her, I waited for her to answer and she asked for more time and I got pissed and slammed the door while leaving" I take my face in my hands because the tears are threatening to fall and I don't think I can let her watch me be a mess.

Irene walks over to me and holds me into a hug. She does not say anything, but that is all I need at that time. I still don't cry. I maybe a confident badass, but it takes me a lot of time to open up to people.