Poems

Another Kind Of Love

At first i saw him as my first love

Then the storm came by.

And in that moment it click.

What i felt it was not longer romantic

It was like a friend kind of love

Someone you don't want to lose.

But why I am still in here

In a relationship that is not meant to work

A relationship that i soon will end

By leaving

By disappearing from his live

and maybe I'll become the reason.

The reason of why he is going to get lost again

But he is the reason i don't want to leave

But I'm not brave enough to end it .

When he tells me he loves me I don't feel it

I don't feel that love that once grew inside of me

I don't feel the "wanting to wake up right next to him".

Once i hear those word I feel empty

No emotion , not love and I only fake smile

A smile that makes him believe that he deserves love.

I don't want to take that away from him

I don't want to take his hopes of one day live freely

But i don't want to stay either.

I should have ended thing with him

The moment I saw him again.

The moment I knew it was going to end bad.

I should have gone back the moment i knew he was sick

With an incurable sickness.

With something my heart can not handle .

The moment i knew my heart was not his

The moment i knew my feelings change

The moment I knew it was another kind of love.

- Vanessa G.R.