Outer Banks x Reader Oneshots

What am I to You? ~ JJ x Pan Male Reader

yo yall. in case u don't know what pan means, it is short for pansexual and it basically means that you're sexually attracted to people regardless of gender or sex. anyway enjoy.

You and your best friend JJ laid on a fold-out couch at John B's. You both spent a lot of time there because of his dad and you just didn't like your family. They were homophobic and you couldn't stand to be around them, so you spent most of your time at John B's. a they didn't care. They didn't pay attention to you anyways.

You wanted to leave them and never go back, but you decided to wait until you were 18. Until then, you would just stay at John B's. You wanted to tell them you were pan and proud, but who knows what they'd do to you? You weren't going to take that risk.

You were interrupted from your thoughts by JJ asking you a question;
"What am I to you?"

"What do you mean?" You asked. 

"I mean, like, what's our relationship to you? What do I mean to you? I-I don't know..."

"Oh, um..." You wanted to tell him how you felt but 1: he's probably straight. 2: you don't want to mess up your relationship that you have with him. And 3: no Pogue on Pogue mackin'.

So instead of he truth, you decided on;
"You're my best friend..."

After a moment of silence, JJ said, "Oh... Well then I guess what I was about to tell you would be really awkward..."

"Go ahead. I'm the definition of awkward. It's okay, bro. Just say it," you replied.

"Well, um... I... I think I... I think I have feelings for you..." You were kind of shocked. JJ seemed like the straightest of straights. He never showed interest in anyone who wasn't a girl before.

"I- sorry..."

"No! Um, no. Don't be sorry... I... I um..." you stammered awkwardly. 

"I-I thought I was straight... But, you've made me think that maybe I'm not... I don't know..." JJ seems really nervous so you gently grab his hand.

"Hey, it's okay not to know. It's confusing, I know..." You said. "I guess I'm just that good," you said, cockily. You both chuckled lightly. 

"You know what? No."

"'No' what?" You asked nervously. 

"I don't think I have feelings for you..."

Your heart sank. S H I T

"I know I do... I love you, (Y/n)..."

"I-... I love you too, J..." You replied. You were excited inside, but you were so nervous that it wasn't showing at all. You would have never thought JJ wouldn't be straight and much less love you.

"Can I... Can I kiss you?" JJ asked. He seemed a lot more nervous then he'd ever been with any girl. It was probably because he wasn't used to being in love with a dude. He was slightly uncomfortable with it since it was new.

"Always," you said, smirking, before JJ's lips brushed yours. It was a passionate kiss, very enjoyable for both of you. In the back of your mind you were hoping John B wouldn't walk in on you two and be like 👁👄👁

Once you lips separated, JJ said, "Yeah, dude, I'm definitely not straight, 'cause that was the best kiss of my life." You both chuckled. After a minute or so, JJ asked you a question;

"How did you know you were pan?" 

"Well, I thought I was straight for a while, but then I started feeling more attracted to dudes, so I thought I was gay, but then something else started to happen; sometimes I would see people and were pretty androgynous and I didn't know their gender, but I thought, 'oh they're kinda hot', you know?"

"That makes sense..." JJ replied. 

"You don't need to have a label, but they can offer some assurance and comfort. I'm here to help if you want me to help you with discovering your sexuality," you said. "But, remember this, no matter what, I love and support you, all right?" JJ nodded.

"The more I think about it, I think maybe I'm pan too. Because pan is attracted to people regardless of gender or sex. So I'm thinking like if you were a girl, I'd still love you and if you were something else, I'd still love you. I think pan suits me," JJ said.

"All right, pan pal," you said with a wink. 

"So um... What does this mean for our... relationship...?" JJ asked. 

"Well, um... Wanna be boyfriends?" 

"Yeah. I'd like that," JJ said with a small smirk. 

"All right then, baby. I'm tired so goodnight," you said, shifting positions. 

"Goodnight, babe."

el end.