Safe House

Nineteen

Fred, George, Ginny and I walked in silence until we got close to Gryffindor tower. That being the closest to the Hospital wing.

"You can stay in Gryffindor, if you want, Keira" Fred said

"Yeah, I'm sure we can sneak you in, can't be that hard, the fat lady might think your just one of us" George said "A Gryffindor, I mean"

"You can stay with me, so your not by yourself In Slytherin" Ginny said.

"It's okay, I'd just rather be in my own bed, you know, but thank you" I smiled weakly, exhausted.

"It's alright, as long as you're sure" Fred said before pulling me into a hug. George was next. But before Ginny had a chance, I pulled her in tight. I can't believe she was only thirteen and seeing all this, must be terrifying. But this wasn't even as close to traumatising as what she went through her first year.

"Love you" I said, the three saying it back, before making my way to Slytherin house.

"Keira!" Theo.

I walked into the Slytherin common room, heading up to the dorms until I noticed the three sat on the sofa's

"Why aren't you asleep?" I asked

"We were waiting for you, wanted to make sure you were okay" Blaise said

"Why wouldn't I, I have no reason to be sad, I barely knew him, I bet he doesn't even care, what about you guys, are you alright?"

"what, don't think of it like that you're allowed to be upset and to cry, you saw his body right in front of you, thats traumatising enough, if you're feeling guilty, don't" Draco said, speaking for the first time to me since.

"Yeah, but a lot of people also saw it, younger than me, closer to him, his parents, girlfriend, Harry was there with him."

"Did he do it?" Blaise asked

"No, of course not, Dumbledore told us not to ask him about it yet, He's not okay at all" I shook my head looking at the floor. "I'm going to bed, night" I said before leaving.

•

The next week went past fast.

Everyone was mourning. No one focused in lessons.

It was quiet. It was like time was travelling in a blur and we were just being dragged through it.

Death is weird.

How it can make things awkward for anyone, but like you're constantly stuck in this idea that you shouldn't be sad because that's not fair for the people close by, you shouldn't be happy or relaxed or relieved because they will never be able to feel again, its rude and offensive.

Just being stuck in not knowing what to do or how to feel. 

The Hufflepuffs were the most distraught, they all looked pale and sad, and lonely, like they were missing something, someone.

Harry was like a ghost of himself, barely speaking, barely interacting with anyone but Ron and Hermione, he was so broken and barely there. 

I secretly felt relieved packing my trunk to go home the next day. To have a break from Hogwarts and the heartbreak. To be with my family and put a pause my schooling for now.

After packing I walked into the guys dorms to head down for the leaving feast.

"You guys alright?" I asked

"Yeah, what about you?" Blaise asked

"I'm good, excited to go home" I grinned

"Well, i'm planning to have a great summer, after this shit year, so you better be in" Theo said, Looking at Draco and Blaise then me