The Seventh Sense is Love

What is Going On?

"Hi Meredith."

"Hi Lexie," she answers as she closes her patient's chart. "How are you?"

"I'm okay. Are you ready to take care of Laura and Ethan this weekend?"

"Yes. I'm a little nervous, though."

"Me too," Lexie laughs. "Great Aunts we are, huh? We're pathetic. Two grown women afraid of a four and a one year old."

"Don't tell Molly," Meredith laughs.

"No way. If she knew we were nervous, they'd never go away for the weekend. And God knows they need it."

"Yeah, they do," Meredith agrees. "I'm sure pizza, movies and play-time at the park are good ideas, but that's only going to get us so far."

"That's good stuff Mer. It's more than I thought of to entertain them."

"I'll ask Derek for some ideas. If he doesn't know maybe we can talk to Kathleen."

"Good idea, Mer. Just remember - do not let on to Molly that we're nervous."

"I wont," she sighs.

Lexie looks closely at her sister. Then asks, "Is something else bothering you?"

Meredith chews her bottom lip and replies softly, "I still haven't heard about my Fellowship. From here, I mean. I've been accepted in Los Angeles and Chicago."

"Oh," Lexie sighs. "There's still time though, right? You could still be accepted here, right?"

"Yes, but it's getting late in the game. I don't want to miss out on a position in L.A. or Chicago because I'm waiting for an answer from Seattle Grace. Especially if the answer is no here."

"Meredith," Lexie whines a little, "they have to accept you here."

"No Lex," Meredith shakes her head, 'they don't have to accept me."

"I know that, but they will. Right? I mean, the Chief wanted you and Derek to work together. That implies that he was going to vote for you to have your Fellowship here."

Meredith is quiet for an uncomfortable moment. Then she takes a deep breath and says, "I'm worried about this but I need to let it go for now. I have surgery in an hour and we're taking care of the kids this weekend."

"Okay," Lexie sighs, "but Mer?"

"Yeah?"

"Have you discussed this with Derek?"

"No. The possibility that I may have to leave him in a few months depresses me."

"What?" Lexie asks with surprise in her voice. "You don't think he'd go with you?"

"I couldn't ask Derek to go with me Lexie. His life - and the structure he needs in his life - is here in Seattle."

"He's in love with you Meredith. You are a huge part of his life and that structure now. Do you really believe he'd just let you walk away?"

Meredith feels her heart start beating faster and her breath grow a little shallow. The idea of losing Derek now - after having just found him - scares the hell out of her. "I can't have this conversation, Lex. Let's just wait and see if I get accepted here. Okay?"

"Okay," Lexie sighs.

"Do you want to scrub-in with me?"

"Let me clear it with Dr. Yang."

"If she says no, tell me so I can get someone else."

"All right," Lexie says with a frown and walks away. She really doesn't want her sister to move away. Why hasn't she gotten an acceptance letter from Seattle Grace yet?
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