exasperated ；rensung

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Jisung had managed to get all the work done in the span of one night. It was admirable how he got it done but the price he had to pay later was merciless. He could feel the lack of sleep driving him crazy.

Keeping his eyelids open was a strenuous job and especially when his body won't cooperate. He forced himself to stay wide awake using his all. It was the last lecture of the day and he'd be free after this.

Gathering his weight, he stood up to leave the room.

"I'm going to make sure i sleep all day long", he thought as he delved in the sweet imagination of his bed.

Jisung's tall figure was supported by the wall of the parking lot as he not-so-patiently waited for his ride to arrive. Having zero energy left in him after the previous study session and the amount of pages he had written on biochemistry, he knew his ATPs were no more.

Opening and closing his eyes twice and giving an aggressive massage at hus forehead, he wondered had he really been stripped off all his senses that now he's hearing things; and that someone crying?

Then he heard it again, a sob faintly sounded from a distance. Jisung squinted around and found that his mind wasn't playing games after all.

There was someone crouched down with their hands on their head and were shaking quite bad.

His heart sank when the crying boy raised his head and found that it had been someone he knew.

Isn't that Mark?

Mark was Renjun's friend as he recollected from before. He had seen them hanging out together pretty often.

But why is he crying?

Should I ask him?

I should, right?

But we're not that close, it'd be weird if I reached out.

But it would be wrong, he might need some help..

Jisung's internal battle ended with a loud horn; signalling he had to go but he decided (finally) to go ask if Mark is okay but as soon as he turned to look, the boy was no longer there.

All the while Jisung felt guilty for not checking up on him. It was killing him and the his tiredness worsened with every second so he tried to tell himself what the fox told himself about the grapes,

"Hope he'll be okay."

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He wasn't. Mark wasn't okay, even far from being okay.

Mark brisked along the rocky pavement. He should be at hime by now. His mom must be sick worried for him but today he didn't care enough. He just wanted to be away from everything.

Mark thinks about how long has it been since he's cried so sadly. His heart felt heavy, like it might burst. His head pounded hard, the pain felt so immeasurable that he wanted to smash open it open.

It's been months- almost a year too. He was doing just fine. He was letting things go. He was happy again. Then why? Why did he had to come back and just ruin it all.

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Jisung was in bliss. In the arms of Morpheus, his battered body recharged in the soft mattress. No one would dare to wake a peaceful sleep like his. No one would be that cruel. No one but Renjun.

The unpleasant noise heralded the unfortunate end to his sleep. He managed to get the phone to his ear and wanted to shout at the person-

"JISUNG PICK UP THE DAMN PHONE!!"

"Shoot- I'm sorry um, yeah. No! I'm coming just give me ten minutes, I'll be there."

Renjun might have tore open his eardrums but at least he'll get to spend some time with him.

or so he thought.

Jeno's place was too loud despite it being a movie night. Shouldn't it be quieter? He wasn't sure because he has never been to one.

The door isn't even open yet the noise is already unbearable. He rang the doorbell half-heartedly and it was Renjun who opened it.

He definitely didn't expect getting scolded the first thing.

Here he goes again...

"Why weren't you picking up your phone? I called you four times! FOUR!"

"I was asleep so I missed it sorry"

He wanted to look away but he couldn't. He regrets answering the question because of how starstruck he got by the ethereal being that was Huang Renjun.

Jisung bit back back a gulp; eyes doubled in size.

Not like Renjun didn't look the absolute best all the time but today with his hair disheveled and the cute hoodie he was wearing that was too big on him just made it seem extra pretty. Not to mention his exposed collarbone- yes, he had walked up to his death today.

"Jisungie~ come inside!"

Jisung got dragged by Jaemin halfway while admiring Renjun who had given the youngest an earful for not picking his phone call.

"Did he even listen to anything I said?" Renjun said exasperated.

This was going to be a long night.

Renjun sighed as he readied himself for all the loudness.

He doesn't get paid enough to deal with their asses and now another has arrived in his life to make it more difficult.

"I never get a break, do I?" said Renjun as he made his way to the rest of the boys.

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The movie night turned into two couples making out with the other two singlets beside them.

Renjun had seen this many times. And oh he was so over this. Every time this would happen!
Why can't they have a normal, PDA-free movie night?!

He thought better of this time because literally a tall as Jisung was with them too. He didn't miss the horrified face of the younger' face before turning to look away.

They could do better, at least with a new friend. What would he be thinking?

Renjun huffed and groaned for the fourth time.

"Jeno, did you hear that? Renjeon, you okay?" Hyuck asked the annoyed male with a teasing tone.

Renjun mouthed him a "fuck you" and returned his attention to the big screen again as the other boy hollered.

But his mind was desperately wishing to end his suffering. His friends rubbing off their relationships and him being single didn't help either.

His focus broke when he heard a thud beside him and looking over he saw Jisung's head craned on the sofa behind them.

Renjun sighed, again.

He's going to end up with a sore neck, he thought.

So the shorter male reached forward and cradled the younger's head to place a pillow underneath but instead the sleepyhead landed on Renjun's shoulder.

Flustered, Renjun tried to pry his head away but his big head won't budge so Renjun gave up.

That is until Jisung moved so that his nose was touching Renjun's neck.

Renjun tried again but this time he got a closer look at the boy's face and he panicked.

shit- he's too close.

He tried concentrating on the movie but it was not working.

He could feel his breath hitting his skin; Renjun shuddered.

When he couldn't take it anymore, he decided to wake Jisung up. He can fall asleep again. It's not like it will hurt him but Renjun really didn't have the heart to do so.

A pre-Jisung Renjun would shake the person until they see stars without giving any care but right now he just couldn't.

so he let him.