exasperated ；rensung

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Renjun got home feeling distraught. Meeting that new kid at the worst time possible really put him off. And the fact that seeing his face wasn't even the reason he was so upset. I was supposed to get angry at him, thought to himself.

But one thing that really bothered him was that Sicheng didn't even consider telling him about jisung. It's not a small thing, their family gained a whole family member but he didn't even tell him?

Next day, Jisung decided to just walk to the college today instead of going in a car while constantly thinking about what Sicheng had asked him the other night, after that Renjun guy left.

" Jisung, do you have minute? I wanted to ask something important. " , Sicheng said when Jisung was about to enter his room after dinner

" Yes, ge. What is it? ", Jisung asked, curiosity visibly through his facial expressions

" Do you by any means know Huang Lifan? "

" um yeah i do. She is my guide in the college but we also became friends kinda? " Jisung asked himself, unsure if they are friends.

" oh, " there goes Sicheng being silent, deeply thinking for a moment until he said, " well, that's great. I'm glad you are already making friends jisung and more to come."

" Haha, thanks ge. Is that all youw wanted to ask? " Jisung asked because he didn't take it as something that 'important'

" Ah yes one more thing, lifan is a good kid so if you have any kinds of difficulties in studying you can ask her. She's the daughter of dad's friend so we have known each other for a while. She and renjun had always been like my siblings- "

Sicheng went on a little more than he was supposed to talk about, infront of Jisung thus stopped realizing what he said.

" It's alright ge, i understand and I don't feel bad about it. It's fine " Jisung said, laughing a little to lift the mood up.

He noticed how Sicheng's eyes shone while talking about them, he wished he could be included too but he sadly wasn't.

As if Sicheng could read his mind, he immediately said, " Jisung you are a part of us too, okay? And now that you're friends with lifan which is a great thing, it'll be even better. I promise you'll never feel left out" he said while holding Jisung's face, looking at him lovingly.

He felt guilty.

Jisung knew that his older brother felt bad about mentioning the other two but still he can't help but feel a little pang at his heart. If only i was there with them too, he thought.

He reached the college with these thoughts lingering in his mind but vanished in a second upon seeing a familiar face smiling at him. He tried to smile and wave at her but then something crossed his mind and he retracted his hand back. Maybe i should just go back, I don't belong here.

Lifan saw the boy who was now looking intently at the ground and went to him so that they can both go to their classes. "What the heck is he doing? Having a staring contest with the ground?" she said to herself, annoyed by jisung wasting his time. Their classes were about to start and she has been waiting for his ass for a while now.