A Series Of Life Changing Events

Chapter 6: The Ghost Of You

I wake up the next day late. Really late. I forgot to set an alarm. It's past noon. I get out of bed and walk down stairs. Gerard is making lunch for Bandit and I have no idea where Lindsey is. "Wow. The vampire is finally awake." I laugh. "Funny you should say that, the only reason I woke up was because the sun was burning me through the window." He begins to laugh. Then Bandit starts laughing. Then silence. "What was funny?" Bandit asks. Gerard and I just laugh. It's really cute when she wants to be a part of the conversation, but she doesn't understand what's going on. I remember I used to do that and bug the crap out of my sister...Oh my God my sister... "Hey are you okay?" Gerard asks noticing I've zoned out. "TRUST ME!" I unexpectedly blurt out and run away laughing. I can hear Bandit laughing from downstairs. I'm back in my room. I run to the drawer and dump everything out looking from the most important thing in there. The video camera. It's old, but it works great. There tons of small disks that fit inside, each one holding a memory from my past. I haven't looked at this since "the incident". I pick random CD and put it in the camera. I make sure to plug in the headphones. It's been so long since I've seen my family. Everyone is younger. My parents are wrinkle free and have a light in their eyes. My sister is happy and my age. The style back then makes me cringe. God what were teenagers back then thinking? Then there is me. I am small and blonde. I look to be about Bandit's age and I'm wear pigtails. I'm very hyper and energetic. The young me is so bright and curious. She never cared what anyone thought of her. She was so special. What happened? That was before I knew about the world and what horrible things could happen. Everything was happy and peaceful. My mom and dad were alive and my sister wasn't gone. She hadn't been ripped away from me. Everything is dead. Everyone is dead. Nothing matters anymore. I punch my pillow and scream into. I start sobbing long and hard. I don't care who hears me. I hear footsteps. I don't even care to think who it might be. It's probably Gerard. He probably doesn't even really care about me. He rushes in. He doesn't speak. I feel him pick up the camera beside me. He looks at it and sighs. He sits down on the bed and puts an arm on my shoulder. "GET AWAY FROM ME!" I scream. I try to get him off, but I just end up rolling to the other side of the bed and falling off. Ouch. He walks over to the other side of the bed and picks me up. I don't protest this time. I just snuggle into his chest. I'm drowning his shirt in my tears. Great now he has to change. I'm so stupid. I start sobbing harder. He sits down on the bed and lays me in his lap. I refuse to let my head leave his chest. "Shhhhh. Hey do you wanna tell me what's wrong?" He says in a soft and quiet voice. He saw the camera. He knows. "S-S-Sk-Sk" I just sob harder. I'm so stupid. I can't even say my own sister's name. Skyler. "Shhh. Shh. I know." He says rubbing small circles into my back. "YOU DON'T KNOW!" I shout. "MY PARENTS ARE DEAD AND MY SISTER IS CRAZY! SHE WAS RIPPED AWAY FROM ME! SHE WAS LAST BIT OF FAMILY I HAD LEFT SO DON'T YOU FUCKING DARE SAY YOU KNOW!" Oh my God what have I done?! I didn't mean to it just happened! He's gonna hate me! He does the unexpected next. He just pulls me tighter. "Lily, even if you hate me right now...if you ever hate me in the future...if you do anything that you may think I'll hate you for...I will always love you. I promise I will never leave you." This means more to me than you could ever imagine. This man has been my idol since forever and now I know I will never lose him. At least I know I have one thing left to hold onto, but I always have to remind myself not to hold on too tightly because when it's gone it'll hurt worse than the most creative pain from satan himself, in the depths of hell. "Just hold on loosely. But don't let go."-38 Special