A Series Of Life Changing Events

Chapter 2: The Fears Of My Past

AUTHORS NOTE: *Words in these snowflake things mean it's a dream*

*Everything is black and screams fill the night. I can feel the blood seeping through my shirt and the cold wind nipping at my nose. There are fresh tears on my face. I hear someone yelling my name. Yelling for help. It's the most familiar voice possible. I hear the screams of my parents pierce my ears. It's unbearable. Then there is a sharp pain in my throat and everything fades*

I wake up screaming and Gerard is bolting into the room. Nothing from the nightmare was really happening at that moment except there were fresh tears on my face. Oh great. I'm so stupid. I wanted to be cool and now he's seen me cry. I try to hide my face. He rushes over to me and puts a hand on my shoulder. As much as I want to push him off, it does feel comforting. His voice is soft and quiet. "Shhh Hey it's okay it was only a dream. I'm here now. I promise I won't let anything happen to you." I just start sobbing louder. That's what my parents used to say to me when I had a bad dream. I'm so flipping stupid. "Hey can you look at me?" Gerard asks quietly. He turns my face to see his beautiful hazel eyes. My face glows red with embarrassment. Why did I have to be this stupid? "There that's better. Isn't it?" He gives me a warm smile. "Do you wanna talk about it." "P-p-p-" I try to talk, but it all comes out in hiccups. I give up on trying to talk and I just sob harder. I'm so useless I can't even talk right. Then comes the thing I've wanted my entire life. Gerard pulls me into his arms and holds me. GERARD FLIPPING WAY IS HUGGING ME. His arms are so warm and his heartbeat is steady. It's like the beat of a drum. He starts rubbing small circles in my back and singing to me. He begins to sing Wake Me Up When September Ends by Green Day. This song is very appropriate for the moment. His voice has always been calming to me. When I'm upset I always have to listen to one of his songs on repeat for hours. By the end of the song he finally manages to calm me down somewhat. He tucks me back into bed and kisses me on the forehead. Then he gets up to leave. I don't want him to go. He can't leave. What if there's something waiting in the dark ready to kill me as soon as he leaves or what if I get so scared I have a heart attack or what if-"WAIT!" He turns around and starts to quietly laugh. "What do you want this time?" "Uh could you uh maybe..... Could you maybe stay here for a while?" He sighs and pulls the covers over. "Move." "This is my bed!" I say laughing. "Well you're the hostess of this little party so move." He says laughing. "You're the one with the name Party Poison." I say shuffling to the side. "Shut up." He says laughing climbs in. His body is really warm. He pulls me into his arms. Then he kisses me on the forehead. "Goodnight. I love you." This makes me smile. I haven't heard anyone say that in a while. "I love you too." I say snuggling into him and falling asleep. There will be no more nightmares for me.