A/N: TRIGGER WARNING (don't read if it makes you uncomfortable or will trigger you in anyway pls)
Leigh-Anne couldn't sleep.
Her bunk on the bus was already small but having Andre in it was not helping at all. She carefully slid out of her bunk and went into the back, only to find that another was also awake. Y/N Y/L/N was sitting on one of the couches. Y/N was the girls' best friend that they had met on the X-Factor. She didn't make it as far as the girls but they never lost touch.
Y/N was playing the Xbox when Leigh-Anne walked in. "Hey. What are you doing up?" Leigh-Anne smiled and sat next to the girl. "I could ask you the same thing." Y/N smiled and paused her game. "Just thinking about stuff. Nothing important." Leigh-Anne shook her head. "Its important if its bothering you."
Y/N shook her head and wrapped her arm around Leigh's shoulder. "You need to sleep, love. You have a show tomorrow." Leigh-Anne wanted to talk to Y/N, figure out what was bothering her, but the urge to sleep was too much. A few minutes after falling asleep, Leigh-Anne felt Y/N pick her up and place her back in her bunk. "Sleep tight, Leigh."
As Y/N went back to the back of the bus, she thought to herself, my feelings for these girls are going to kill me.
The next morning, Y/N woke to two hushed voices. "I don't want to wake her up, she looks so peaceful and cute." A click was heard before the other voice spoke up. "She has to get up, she said that she would go with us to soundcheck." Y/N's eyes fluttered open to see Jade standing next to a smiling Perrie holding her phone. "Can I help you two?" Perrie giggled and laid herself on top of Y/N. "Get up sleepyhead. We gots stuff to do." Before Y/N could respond, Luke and Jed walked in with a smiling Alex behind them.
Alex and Y/N were best friends and he knew of her feelings for all the girls. Luke, Jed, Andre, and Chris didn't like Y/N because they didn't like how close she was to their girls. "Y/N!" Alex pushed Perrie off of the girl and took her place. Y/N grunted at the impact. "Girls, let's go Andre and Leigh are already waiting and Chris and Jesy are ready to go." Jade and Perrie pouted while Alex spoke up.
"I'll make sure she's up and ready to go you two. Go ahead." Both girls reluctantly left, failing to see Luke and Jed glare at Y/N before following them. Y/N sighed and closed her eyes again before Alex yanked her up. "Nope, I am not letting you go back to sleep to avoid things, get up." Y/N sighed and got up to get dressed.
As her and Alex walked into the venue to watch the girls have their soundcheck, Alex noticed how sad Y/N looked. "What's wrong? You seem down." Y/N shook her head. "It's nothing." Alex shook his head. "Is it about the girls?" Y/N sighed sadly. "Y/N, why don't you tell them how you feel?" Y/N looked at him like he was crazy. "Why, so they can laugh in my face? And, plus, they are all in relationships. With people who could kill me if they found out." Alex went to say something but Y/N cut him off. "I'm not good enough for them Lex, and I never will be. Now, can we drop it and go to soundcheck?"
Alex nodded and the two headed off to watch the girls, not knowing that someone had heard their entire conversation, and that someone was Jade.
Jade had forgotten her new shoes that she was going to break in during rehearsal on the bus so she had run out to go and get them and when she came back is when she saw Y/N and Alex walk in. Her and the rest of the girls had noticed that something had been bothering Y/N but the girl wouldn't tell them what it was. It hurt their hearts that the girl was hurting.
So, when she heard Y/N tell Alex that she had feelings for her and the rest of the girls, she was shocked. Why didn't Y/N tell them? It's not like they would reject her, they all had feelings for her. Jade waited until Alex and Y/N were out of sight before sprinting back to the dressing room. She had to tell the girls.
