𝗟𝗨𝗖𝗜𝗗 𝗗𝗥𝗘𝗔𝗠𝗦 | 𝘤𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘨𝘭𝘪𝘹

⎡𝟯⎦

⎡𝗙𝗘𝗟𝗜𝗫⎦

I gasp as the weight of Changbin's body pushes me down.

My back splashes into the cold water, hitting the moist soil underneath.

Changbin stops himself from falling any further with his hands, trapping me in between.

He opens his eyes and his lips slightly part in shock once he realizes what position we're in.

Instead of getting off like I expected him to, he stays.

The only things that can be heard are our breathing, and the occasional splashes of fish jumping in and out of the water.

My heart beats faster than ever, maybe even Changbin can hear it.

I take this chance to examine his features up-close.

His dark, raven hair contrasts with my light, pink hair.

His glassy, flawless complexion is so much different from my pale, freckled skin.

His eyes are rather thin, making him seem cold at first glance.

But I know he's a complete softy inside that icy shell of his.

A small scar runs over his cheek, fresh ointment applied over it.

A red bruise on his forehead, only making his fair skin stand out even more.

Our faces are so close that his nose is almost touching mine.

His hot breath fans my lips, making them moist and soft.

A sudden pang of realization hits me when Changbin slowly runs his tongue over his lip.

What am I doing?

What are we doing?

Felix: Ch-Changbin...

That's all it takes for him to quickly back away, releasing me from between his arms.

Changbin: S-sorry, I just- I didn't mean to do that...

Felix: It's okay, I understand.

He smiles and awkwardly stands up, walking out of the lake.

I do the same and sit down on a large rock nearby.

Felix: Binnie, did you ever wish you could have something, but you know it's impossible?

Changbin: Of course. I wish I had freedom. But with my father around, I know I won't be able to have it.

Felix: Oh, then I guess this is your place of relief, isn't it?

Changbin: Not just this place, you are too. Being with you makes me happy, it makes me feel free.

He smiles, a genuine smile this time, and I can't help but smile back.

Things like this are what make my heart flutter.

He probably doesn't even know what effect his words have on me.

Changbin: Is there anything like that for you?

Felix: No, I'm happy with my life just the way it is.

Lies.

I want you.

But I know I can't have you.

Not when you're not real, not when you're just an imaginary person that my mind created.

Not when you don't even exist.

After talking and laughing together for a few hours, Changbin sighs and gets off the rock.

Changbin: I should go, I'll see you later Lix.

Felix: Alright, goodbye Binnie!

After he disappears, I close my eyes and open them again to be met with the sight of my room.

Felix: And I'm back.

I sigh and rub my eyes, missing Changbin already.