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I catch my breath, I laugh and say, "Oh my god, please forgive me." I grab a tissue and start rubbing his shirt, which is now pressed against his stomach. He gently pushes my hand away, smiles and says, "It's okay. It's okay." I don't even notice my hand reaching for his shirt again and starting to clean it as we stare into each other's eyes.
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He looks at my hand, gently removes it, laughs, and says, "Seriously, Min Jee. It's going to be okay. I think you're just making it worse." I pull my hand away and say, "Oh, I'm sorry." He smiles at me and says, "It's okay. It's okay."
I put the napkin aside and then look back at Yoongi. It's only now that I realize how close we really are. Our faces are only about six inches apart. He looks into my eyes and I can't look away. Then Yoongi quietly asks, "Can I...can I kiss you?" I'm a little surprised by the question, but it makes me realize how much I really want to, so I smile and nod.
He smiles and leans in closer and closer until the distance between our faces disappears and our lips meet. After a few seconds, he deepens the kiss and places his hand on my cheek. I put my hand on his neck and feel him pull me closer to him, if that's possible.
After a moment, he carefully pulls away and smiles. Then he asks, "More wine, maybe?" I say, "Sure." I hand him my glass and he pours me more wine. We continue to drink wine and talk about different things, but after a moment I realize that I'm completely unable to hear what he's saying because I can't stop thinking about the kiss.
After a second, he asks, "Min Jee? Are you even listening to me?" I look at him and ask, "Excuse me, what?" He looks at me and asks, "Are you okay?" I look at him, realize that he's still very close to me, and nod.
He asks, "Did you even hear what I said?" I look at him and, without controlling myself, I lean in and kiss him. I feel him a little distracted at first, but then he immediately relaxes and deepens the kiss.
After a moment, when he pulls away, he smiles. I smile too and he looks into my eyes. He pours me more wine, I thank him and start drinking it. I laugh and say, "It almost looks like you're planning to get me drunk so I don't get home." Yoongi smiles and says, "Who knows, maybe I am."
And with that, he winks at me. I laugh and then I see him lick his lips and bite them. I say, "You're doing it again." Yoongi looks at me and says, "Huh? What am I doing again?" I say, "Every time you try to stop yourself from doing something or when you try to act sexy, you lick your lips and then start biting them."
He looks at me and asks, "How do you know?" I look at my hands, confused, not even knowing the answer to that. I shake my head and say, "I have no idea." He smiles and says, "Who knows, maybe you're slowly starting to get your memory back."
I say, "Who knows? Maybe." He leans closer to me and just as I think he's going to kiss me, he reaches up and brushes a strand of hair out of my face. I blush and feel embarrassed. He laughs at my reaction and asks, "What, you wanted a kiss from me??"
I push him away and mutter quietly, "Who wanted what? You're the one who's crazy about me and my kisses." He looks at me and says, "Yeah, I am. But is it that bad?"
I look at him and feel a little awkward. He notices this and immediately stands up. He gives me his hand and helps me up too. He's about to take the empty wine bottle away, then turns to me and says, "Hmm, but right now it looks like you're the one who can't keep your hands off me."
I lower my head, but he drops the bottle to the ground gently, then puts his finger under my chin, lifts my face up and says: "Hey, it's okay. I wouldn't be able to resist myself either. There are thousands of girls crazy about me." He laughs and lets me go.
I push him away furiously, he slips and falls on his back. I laugh, but I immediately run up to him and ask: "Oh my god, are you okay?" I put my hand to his cheek and stroke it. He looks me deep in the eyes and then pulls my hand closer to him so that I fall on top of him.
He says: "Yeah, everything's okay now." I smile and then I pull myself out of his grip and stand up. He stands up too and then I take the bottle and, walking quickly away, carry it to his kitchen. He slowly walks up to me and says, "If I didn't know better, I'd say you're running away from me because you can't help but be away from me."
I stop, turn to him, and say, "You've had enough." Then I turn back, go to the kitchen trash can, and throw the bottle away. Then I go to wash my hands, but Yoongi says, "So what? I have thousands of female fans to choose from. Why would I choose you?"
That sentence, for some reason, hurts me, but I ignore it. I wipe my freshly washed hands and walk past him. He grabs my hand and turns me toward him. He pulls me into a hug and says, "Hey, I'm kidding. I promise. It was just a joke."
I pull away from the hug and say, "I don't care. Why are you telling me this? Tell your many thousands of female fans, none of whom you have chosen yet. Maybe they will care, but I don't."I go back to the living room to get my things, but Yoongi is furiously following me. I notice him coming towards me and I slowly back away. He slowly comes closer to me and soon I have nowhere to retreat to because there is a wall behind me.
He puts his hands on either side of me so I can't escape. Then he leans his face closer to mine and says, "Min Jee. You're pissing me off a little bit right now. And you keep giving me mixed signals. At first you show interest in me, then you say you don't care. What's the deal? You better tell me now so I know what to do or not to do."
I look at him and see his eyes darken and he pokes his cheek with his tongue, like he does when he's frustrated or angry. I think to myself, "Oh man, he's so hot when he's mad. That turns me on sooo much, I can't." I gulp and he says, "Well, what's it gonna be then?"
I look at him again and don't even realize I blurt out, "Kiss me." He asks, "What did you just say?" I look away and say, "Forget it." I'm about to leave when he pulls me back, pushes me against the wall, and kisses me very hard and passionately.
He puts his hand on my stomach and then slides it down my hips and from my hips to my bottom. He picks me up in his arms, goes to a random room, and lays me down somewhere. We pull away and I notice that the room is the kitchen and I'm sitting at the table. I ask, "What are we doing here?"
He ignores my question and takes a bottle of water out of the fridge. He takes a drink, then looks at me and asks, "So how do you like it? Do you like it when you're teased like this, when it seems like the other person wants it too, and then it turns out that he's just playing with you and you want it?"
I nod and say, "Well, if you play like this, then I can go home, okay?" He puts down the water bottle and says, "No, I didn't let you go anywhere." I reply, "And I didn't let you play with me like that." He says, "I'm Min Yoongi. I'm not asking for permission. I don't care."Suddenly my head feels dizzy and I close my eyes.
***He laughs and then I get up and go to another room. But as I get up, I feel Yoongi slap me on the butt. I turn to him and say, "Yah. Min Yoongi. Who gave you permission to do that?" Yoongi says, "I'm Min Yoongi. I'm not asking permission. I don't care."***"Do you really like playing with other people's feelings that much? Are you really that disgusting?" I lower my hands and say, "Okay, that's it. I've had enough. If you don't let me talk and won't listen to me, then I'm leaving. I've had enough of listening to these insults."I turn and try to walk away, but Yoongi pushes me back against the wall and kisses me vigorously. I pull away and ask, "What the hell are you doing?" He sighs and says, "Kim Min Jee, you're driving me crazy. I can't get you out of my head no matter how hard I try."***I step over the railing and am about to jump when suddenly I hear someone say to me, "Are you sure you want to jump??"***Yoongi starts giving me CPR and soon I start coughing up water and open my eyes. I ask, "Why??" He says, "I already said I'd jump. If I didn't jump, I wouldn't be able to sleep at night. Well...I wouldn't be able to sleep at night." I smile weakly and sit down. He extends his hand for a handshake and says, "By the way, my name is Yoongi. Min Yoongi." I say, "Sure...my name is Kim Min Jee."
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I wake up on the couch, covered in a blanket. I open my eyes and sit up. Yoongi, whose lap my head was resting on, removes the pillow from my feet and says, "You're awake. You slept for a couple of hours."
