dedicated for you || khun.a.a

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i folded the last paper that i just read moment ago, a pile of folded papers were stuck at the top of my desk neatly as if no one ever touch it even though i keep on reading those all the times every night before i go to sleep.

even when it looks really neat at the outside, those papers were full of dried tears when you actually open and read it since i can't help myself but crying whenever i read the words that i only dedicated it for you.

it's already 7 years that you left the world.

7 years that i survive on living inside this cruel world.

7 years that i keep on remembering you.

9 years that i still fall head over heels to you.

even after you left me, my feelings never change once a bit as my heart only beating just for you.

i really miss how much you send butterflies inside my stomach whenever you're around me.

i really miss those sweet smile you always gave me.

i really miss your hugs that made me feel so warm and safe like nothing can hurt me whenever you wrapped your arms around me.

i really miss those sweet gestures and small peck you placed on my cheeks.

fuck it, i miss you so bad.

even with those 7 long years, the feelings i've longing for you never disappear.

as tears started to sipping through my eyes, i could hear someone knock in front of the door mumbling something that i couldn't hear.

i wipe my tears away and clear my throat before walking to open the door for the dark brown haired man come into my vision and sending me a small smile.

"khun, we should leave now"

i nod my head before taking the light gray coat and entering the car, letting the man who drive me towards the building where the stage that full of light and crowded with people that excitedly waiting for my appearance.

"bam, what do you think she would say right now?"

bam sent me another of his warm smile but there is a hint of sadness behind it right now as he got caught up by his own thoughts for a moment before answering my question.

"she would be really proud of you! that's for sure!"

i crack a smile knowing that bam is right, i'm sure that the real you will also thought about the same thing.

"right"

i take a deep breath and letting the make up artist doing few things on my soft light blue hair with blush on their face when i just too focus staring at my reflection inside the mirror.

your pair of [e/c] eyes are the only things that make me considering your promise since you're not entirely leaving me alone.

the only part of you that stay with me.

as they finish, i walk towards the stage hearing an instant cheers that suddenly filling the whole building when the audience look at me with full of admiration.

i let out a smile and bowing respectfully, eyeing the black hair boy that's now grown into someone that could easily catching girls attention and my mom who smiling softly right besides him as they clapping their hands.

after the formalities, i sit in front of the black grand piano placing my fingers at the cold keys staring right into it with a small smile before pressing it lightly, giving the soft melodies that echoing through the entire place hoping that my music could reach the heaven so you would be proud of me for finding the right rhythm for the lyrics you left me.

my name is khun aguero agnis, now i'm 26 years old.

and i'm the best pianist all around the world.

every single soul in this world know about me.

and this is how i make your dreams come true.

everything in my life, i dedicated it only for you.

-the end