Velocity-> Jack Gilinsky

Chapter 30

*Olivia's Pov*   

I was manipulated. I was heartbroken. But most of all, I felt idiotic. I felt like one of the most ignorant human beings in the world. I knew what I was getting myself into, so why was I so stunned when Jack ended it? He doesn't need me or love me. He could go on the same way he did before me. But I wanted him; I longed what it was like before we felt anything towards each other because now look at us... our relationship was a mess. He was selfish to just leave; I was selfish for wanting him to stay for me.

I was worried about Jack and what he may be doing to himself right now. I know that was his escape; he wasn't really the person that he hid behind. He could be down to earth, compassionate, genuine, and romantic when he wanted, but once he realized that he was letting his "bad boy" image fade out of his grip, he turned cold and blunt. I cared so much, but Jack, so little.

"What are you up to?" I lifted my gaze from my hands to my mom as she stood against the door, one hand holding the knob. I scooted myself up from my bed, resting against the headboard. She took it as a signal to come over to me and sit in the empty space beside me.

"Just relaxing..." But I was far from doing that. 

"You're just sitting in this dark room... it's so depressing-"

"Ok, mom, go ahead and criticize me about something new today," I spoke, impatience in my voice. What did it matter to her how my room was like?

"You've seemed very... on edge this past week. There's something you're not telling me, Olivia." I slouched, crossing my arms over my chest as I looked towards her stern, wrinkled face.

"There's nothing I have to say to you." I knew this conversation was leading into a fight. I mean, it always did. This was the reason I never talked to her; she made everything I said sound ballistic.

"Hm... does the name "Jack" ring a bell? Or- or maybe your secret relationship with him, Olivia. Yeah, that's it." I watched in disgust as she furrowed her eyebrows, deepening the wrinkles on her forehead. "I don't understand where all this rebellious behavior is coming from  all of a sudden," she continued, shaking her head in disapproval. 

"This is ridiculous! No one should have to approve of a relationship. The only people that matter in it are the two that are in love!" I knew Tommy was the one to spill the news to my mom. He made it his job to get me in trouble for every little thing.

"You don't know what love is, Olivia! You're a replica of those young teenage girls in movies that are ignorant to what their parents tell them. And when you get your heart broken, you'll come running back to me or your father..." I was disgusted with her as she spoke with so much hostility in her voice and a nasty grin upon her face.

"You definitely won't be the one I come running to; you're terrible," I spat, wearing the same sly grin. There was no way that I would mention how Jack and I weren't even together.

"You're grounded!" My eyes burned into her back as she left my room. And  I was proud of myself for fighting back. I'd have to be doing it a lot from now on.