Velocity-> Jack Gilinsky

Chapter 23

SONG: Matt McAndrew's Cover- Fix You

Two Weeks Later

*Jack's Pov*

The swoosh of the doors swinging open as I nearly run through them gives me a sense of comfort. Thank god it's that time of the day again; the time I get to leave this hell hole.

I've started to despise this place even more since Liv started going back to hating and avoiding me. It's unbelievable how used I got to having her in my life, and now, I've totally taken that and crumbled it into a billion pieces in my reckless hands. I took her for granted, or at least I took all the opportunities I could of had with her for granted.

I pulled the strap of my backpack tighter against my shoulder, pausing for a moment to look for my car in the crowded parking lot. And that's when I saw her.

"Olivia!" I ran over to her as she seemed to be looking for someone. She didn't respond, and so I placed my hand on her arm, but not for long as she jerked it away. Liv stayed with her back facing me, seeming as if she was seething with anger. "Olivia..." I nearly whispered, walking to the front of her. Her eyes stayed fixed on the ground as her lips remained parted, and Liv's body rocked back and forth slowly as her breathing was unregulated. "You can't even make an effort to call or text me?" That's when Olivia hesitantly brought her gaze to me, hurt mirrored in her eyes.

"I didn't want to bother you," she responded plainly, and I was surprised she spoke so calmly. She turned away from me again, continuing her search. I couldn't stand how non cooperative she was being; I just wanted to get through to her.

I then ran up to her for the second time, and Liv stopped pacing, seeming annoyed. "Please. Let me talk to you," I nearly begged.

"Talk about what, Jack?! How you completely humiliated me in front of all those people? How you-"

"I'm an absolute asshole. Trust me, I get it. But when I apologize to you, I'm being sincere."

She let out an obviously sarcastic laugh, shaking her head before responding. "You know... It's funny..."

"What is?"

"How you keep having to apologize to me for different things. If you meant it in the first place, you wouldn't have to do it numerous times, Jack!" Liv nearly yelled the last few words.

"God dammit, Olivia! Why can't you just understand that I'm honestly sorry. This is just who I am... I have a habit of hurting the people I actually care about."

"Whoawhoawhoa "the people you actually care about"?! You cared enough about me to suck my face in the most senseless and least passionate way ever? How are we supposed to recover from this? Just pretend that it didn't happen? Why couldn't you have at least pretended like you gave the smallest shit about me? I know this won't seem that big of a deal to you, Jack, but that was my first kiss. And let me tell you, I was never imagining it to be that heartless ever in my life. I mean, these are the types of things girls dream about so many years of their lives..." Tears flooded the bottom of Olivia's eyes as she looked back and forth between mine. It was like she was searching for the answer to why I was such a heartless person; for being so reckless and always upsetting others around me.

"I felt like you didn't want my attention. I felt like that the first time I met you, right in this parking lot... But I at least made an effort to try and win you over, and that still seems like it hasn't worked." I truly had feelings for Olivia, but she would never believe me. She'd only believe all the things she heard about me, even though most of them were true.

"But I did, Jack. I did. I did want your attention, so badly actually... I'm just scared, and I still am scared. I didn't know what to do to show you that..." Her voice became deeper as she fought back the tears threatening to race down her cheeks. I didn't know I hurt her that badly.

Liv continued, furrowing her eyebrows before speaking. "Why haven't you ever talked to me about this until now?"

"I didn't want to make you feel uncomfortable."

"And how do you think I feel now?" Olivia let a sarcastic smile make its way onto her trembling lips. "I feel like- like nothing. Just like you described that kiss."

"Liv! Come on!" A guy's voice roared from the driver's seat in the car that pulled up next to Olivia. He was familiar... I think his name was Thomas.

Olivia turned to give him a quick glance before facing me again. She sniffled, wiping under her eyes, and taking in and letting out a deep breath before speaking. "I think... it's best if we just break all connections with each other for a while."

" "A while"? How long is that?!... Liv, please. I don't want to go that long without seeing or talking to you." My heart seemed to sink as I processed what she said, and I was in hysterics.

"It's only been four months that we've known each other, Jack. We'll both go back to living our old lives, and-"

"Exactly, four months! I-I don't want to go back to living my "old life". There was nothing to live for, and I'm surprised I'm still here. I just- I need your positivity and energy..." I couldn't believe the extent of how much she hated me.

"I'll see you soon, Jack." But she knew. She knew she wouldn't be seeing me soon as she stepped into the back seat of the car, not even giving me one last glance before telling her cousin to drive away.

And I suddenly realized the pain I left her with, because now, I felt it inside of me.

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