All of Your Life

One Month Later

It had been a month since they went out to the trailer. Meredith found it harder to and harder to keep her secret since Derek spent every evening at her house helping her with Ava, even flirting with her, but backing off when it came to anything roughly intimate. Looking to the clock she noticed that Derek's shift would be over in a little over two hours and he'd buzz straight there. A part of her wondered if Derek had figured out that Ava was his daughter but she knew she couldn't wait much longer to tell him

"There you are! You were suppose to meet me an hour ago," Cristina said angrily from the kitchen doorway.

"Oh my god," she sighed, looking at the clock again. "I'm so sorry. I totally forgot."

"So you and McDreamy get back together and you forget all about us?"

"It is not like that..."

"He's here every night, Meredith."

"I know. But, he never even touches me."

"Do you think he knows Ava is his?" she asked, sitting down. Meredith shrugged. "What if I take the munchkin and drop her off at the hospital tomorrow morning. That should give you and Derek time to talk."

"I don't..."

"I'm only going to say this once. And if you ever repeat this I will personally kill you and make it look like an accident. The man loves you. He always has and he always will. I happen to know for a fact you still love him. So, tell him everything. And also, fuck him! You need to get laid! You're no fun when you're sex deprived," Cristina told her bluntly. She watched Meredith for a reaction, and was surprised to see her smiling. "Meredith?"

"Are you sure about taking Ava tonight?"

"Yes."

"Thank you Cristina."

"Yeah," she mumbled not wanting anyone even Meredith know how much she was looking forward to have her god-daughter tonight.

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Looking in the mirror, Meredith touched up the last of her makeup. She knew Derek didn't care if she wore make up or dressed up, he loved her in scrubs with her hair pulled into a messy ponytail. But, she wanted him to remember her the way she used to be. She was tired of going slow. She just wanted to be with the man she loved. The doorbell rang, and knowing that it was Derek, she took a deep breath, before opening the door.

"Mer," he breathed. "You look...wow."

"Thanks. So, are you coming in?" she asked, leaving the door open for him as she walked into the living room. Derek followed her and looked around, surprised not to see Ava in the living room playing like she usually was.

"Where's Ava?" he questioned.

"She is with Cristina for the night."

"Well I should go home," said Derek, turning to leave.

"You don't have to leave you could stay for dinner," she told him hopefully.

"Meredith..."

"I want to spend some time alone with you Derek, getting to know each other again or whatever."

"Meredith, I don't think that's a good idea."

"Why the hell not?"

"It just... I'll come back tomorrow when Ava is home," he said, walking out of the living room and into the foyer. He placed his hand on the door handle when he heard Meredith behind him.

"So you don't want to spend time with me," she said, holding back a few tears. "Just my daughter. We come as a package deal Derek, you can't just choose to spend time alone with her it doesn't work that way," she added a little angrily.

"Don't you think I know that Meredith? I would love to spend time alone with my daughter but her mother won't let me," yelled Derek.

"What? What the hell are you talking about?" asked Meredith.

"I am talking about that beautiful little girl being mine," he spat. Meredith gasped, surprised at his knowing. "Did you really think I wouldn't find out?"

"Who told you," she asked him quietly.

"I figured it out the night I took you to the trailer. "

"I was going to tell you that night," she assured him with tears in her eyes.

"I know you were Meredith," he sighed. "I'm sorry I yelled."

"Me too...I miss you Derek," she whispered, just loud enough for him to hear her.

Derek couldn't handle it any longer he walked up to her and wrapped his arms around her. Pulling her close to him, he buried his face in her hair, breathing in the strong lavender scent. Now he had her in his arms, he never wanted to let go.

"I'm so sorry Mer. I thought I needed space. And, I thought this could go horribly wrong and I could lose you and Ava."

"We were good together Derek. I don't ever want to lose you but if somehow I did, I'd never keep you from Ava. I felt guilty enough about it for the last two years, but Ava was always my link to you, the only part of you that I had left."

"Well I am not going anywhere Meredith if you'll take me back into your heart."

"You never left," she said wrapping her arms around his neck and kissing him passionately.