Sometimes I'm afraid to know what's outside the cage, maybe this is the reason I always stay inside even if the door is open.
If I think this through, I did a pretty huge effort to make this space a better place, why would I make everything dark and empty again? It's not worth it. It's important to prepare myself for whatever will be outside. I know we can do it.
I still wonder what's outside this mess, what is like being completely free, happy. Happy is such a strange word, I don't know why, I just can't imagine having a happy life, isn't that like impossible? I guess for most people their life is happy and sometimes is not. But for most of us the life is sad and we have few moments of happiness.
I think the first step we have to take is to be more comfortable with our depression, not to fear it, we actually have to become friends with it. I know it sounds weird but hear me out. If we have to live with it for some time, why fear it? why detest it? After all it's part of us and we have to love every part.
Accepting it is the first step to making it disappear.
Imagine this: You are alone in your cage with your depression,have a talk with it.
Ask her:Why are you here? Where did you come from? WHAT ARE YOU STILL DOING HERE? What's its name?
Write down your answers to these questions, you'll find out you actually have to talk a lot with yourself, especially if you're like me and can't express your feelings too well.
I mean, I just found out I like to write stuff like this even if I suck at it.
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SpiritualSometimes our mind lives in a cage, fighting to be kept in the light. But it's hard to fight alone. Personally, writing helped me realise what's going on in my life. Maybe my writing will inspire you to write your story. Recovery is worth it, slowly...
