Into The Unknown (Boku no hero academia x male reader)

{36} Ku

**3rd person's POV

After Bakugou, [m/n], and Midoriya had finished cleaning up they all went back to their own rooms. Due to the fact that they were under house arrest they obviously weren't allowed to hang out together because that would defeat the purpose of the punishment.

And for the first time in ever, [m/n] was actually glad that he was unable to see either of them. He wouldn't know what to say to them, how to act around them, plus, it's not like he can pretend everything's ok. He's knows best that that wouldn't work on them.

They can both practically read him like an open book, sooner or later he's going to have to tell them he knows about One For All.

[m/n] turned his body over on his bed so that he his face was being suffocated by his pillow

"Fuck!" He yelled out a muffled screamed. He turned back over so he was laying flat on his back again, staring up at his ceiling in frustration. Self deprecating thoughts filled his mind and flashbacks of all the events of the previous night played on repeat.

[m/n] tilted his head to the side, now looking at the photo of him and his parents placed on his desk. A soft sigh escaped his lips as he stared at the photo for a few moments.

"Mama... Papa... am I bad person?" [m/n] muttered, his eyes not leaving the photo of his parents "yesterday [s/s] said I was really selfish and self centred... and I can't help but agree with her. Katsuki was going through something really hard and I didn't notice... I ended up over hearing something I shouldn't have and I don't know how to tell them."

[m/n] felt his vision go blurry as the tears that had pooled together finally rolled down his cheeks

"Please...I don't know what to do anymore..." [m/n] rolled over on his side and curled in on himself like a ball. "Maybe it would've been better if I was never born..."

[m/n] remained in that fetal position for the next few hours, his mind never stopped thinking about everything that had happened to him these past few months. He barely changed positions, too scare that if he moved he would lose control and his hands would find their way to a blade and the blade would find its way to mark his skin.

It had been a while since he had the urge, and even longer since urge was so strong. Such an impulse only came when he was feeling low about him self, and now, he felt that he was absolute scum.

A loud grumble of [m/n]'s stomach pulled him out of his thoughts, he slowly sat upright from his bed, clutching unto his stomach. He felt the dried up tear stains on his cheeks and more still gathered around his eyes, the wet spot on his bed and the dryness of his throat.

"Oi... aren't I cry a little too much these day?" He chuckled bitterly to himself before getting up from his bed and heading to the bathroom to wash his face.

Afterward washing up a bit, he grabbed his phone and slippers and left his room to head down to the kitchen to grab lunch. Right as he shut his door, Bakugou was exiting out of his room as well.

"K-Katsuki" [m/n] felt his shoulders tense up as he stared at the blonde who was awkwardly scratching the back of his neck

"Lunch?" Bakugou asked

"Huh? Oh, yeah" [m/n] nodded his head and joined Bakugou to head to the elevator. They stopped at the second floor and when the doors opened they saw Midoriya standing there

"Kacchan, [n/n]-chan..."

"Lunch?" [m/n] asked, a small smile on his lips

"Y-Yeah" Midoriya nods, stepping into the elevator and standing between [m/n] and Bakugou.