Ang Bakla kong Boyfriend

Understanding Him

Yumi

Huh? Anong nangyari don? Bumaba ako dahil bigla na lang umalis sa kwarto ko si Kay.

"Ma si Kay asaan?" tumingin ito sakin dahil inihanda nya ang mga pagkain. "Ano? Akala ko andon sya sa kwarto mo, sabi nya aayain ka na nyang kumain." sagot naman ni Mama.

Wala na ako magawa at umakyat para kuwain ang cellphone ko at tawagin si Kay.

Nang sagutin nya ang tawag ko ay bigla na akong nag-salita.

"Kay?" .... Hindi ito sumagot... "Bakit ka umalis bigla? Alam mo ba di alam ni Mama na umalis ka. Nag-alala tuloy bigla." ... "Ikaw? Di ka nag-aalala?" rinig kong sagot nya. Buti naman at sumagot pa sya.

"Nag-alala rin of course, if you just run away like that then don't say where you are going. Sinong di mag alala, diba?" wala uli nagsalita matapos kong sabihin yon. *may masama ba akong nasabi? Na-offend ko basya?* "Sooo, saan ka nga pumunta?" I ask to break the silence. Since it's making me embarrass.

"I just need to run some errands, I didn't notice the time. I just remember that me and my family will have a family dinner." He said kind of stuttering but still avoided stuttering. "Kay are you lying?" .... "What if I told you I am lying? Would that change the fact that I'm not okay?" and with that he ended our call.

So there's no family dinner, He's just not okay. I guess I need to let him alone. It's like he just needs some time and I'll comfort him. OKAY!

Two days... It's been two days and he's ignoring me, I try to start some conversation but he's just going to walk away or answer shortly. AND I hate it. Everytime he doesn't look at me the way he used to look at me, he doesn't interact with me like he used to. I miss him even though we're just sitting beside each other.

It's now our dismissal from Mrs. Emily Ferrer. She still scares me every time she calls my name to answer, It's like she's angry or mad at me. Buttttt back to my part. Kay just sat there still looking at the window.

Nakatitig sa kawalan at kung saan saan na napapadpad ang isip nya. Parang ang lalim ng iniisip pero ang mata nya ang nagpakita.. Nalulungkot siya. His eyes said he's tired and sad. I think that he needs someone right now so that he can let it out.. 'Kayden.." napatigil sya at tumingin sya sa paligid. "Hi." He said coldly. "Kay if you need someone, you know that I'm always here right?"

He just nodded and I sat next to him to be more comfortable but not so near him to give him some space. "I know." Again.. He answered shortly.. Once again.. "Eh bakit pinagtatabuyan mo ko!" There I let out for two days.

"I've tried to stop overthinking to take over and stay calm, but can't when your situation is like that Kay!" I was overreacting I know, pero di ko kaya yung ganito kami. My tears are now covering my sight and I'm trying to not let the tears fall off my eyes.

"Shh.. I'm sorry.." he immediately comforted me and hugged me. "Ano ba! Bakit ka ba nagsosorry?!" in that moment I let my tears fall... We stay like that for seconds and stay silent but I pull out when I hear him sobbing.

"Kay?" I held his face with my hands and caressed it. Wiping his tears away. "Say it, I'll listen."

Nang tumahan na sya ay naghanda sya para sabihin sakin ang kanyang gustong sabihin. "Yumi.. There is a girl that i love before, the house that I tell everyone. Yung napuntahan mong bahay na pinagawa ko.. Hindi talaga yun para kay Bryan.. Para samen yun ni Nevaeh. Ang babaeng pinangakuan ko na I'll build a house for both of our future. Sya yung babae na di ko makalimutan.." sabi nya. Halata sa tono nya ang saya at ang lungkot habang sinasabi yon.

"Mahal mo pa?" tanong ko. Tumango sya "Itutuloy ko ba yung bahay kung di ko na mahal yung tao? Yumi sya yung babaeng lahat ng lalaki mapapatingin sakanya o kya natititpuan sya. Di naman talaga ako ganito dati eh. Dati I'm a guy who do whatever he wants pero nung dumating sya I've become the guy to do everything to get what she wants, to give her whatever she like. Nagging sandalan namin ang isa't isa. Alam mo bang hulog sya ng langit?" he asked. "Her name says it all. Nevaeh spells it backwards and it reads as Heaven.

She's everything I like in a girl. Madiskarte, Dependent at may pangarap sa buhay. Her family and My family are good with our relationship. Mom calls her, her daughter the same goes with Dad. Everyday she reminds me to pursue what I like and prioritize my study before her kasi ayaw nyang sya yung sasagabal para di ko makuha ang gusto kong dream job.

She loves me too much that she gets tired of me being too manly to show off what I feel for her. She left me but I can't say it's her fault na nasagasaan sya ng isang kotse. She just want to apologize because sya yung nagsimula nung away namin. Last words she say is. 'I'm sorry I shouldn't start the fight. I will always love you for who you are right now.' her last words still breaks me down everytime na naalala ko sya.

Dati sakanya ko nakikita yung kinabukasan ko, yung pag-gigising ako sa umaga gusto ko sya ang katabi ko. Ngayon ikaw na yun. Ikaw uli yung kukumpleto sakin. Pero duwag ako eh, natatakot ako na baka kapag hinawakan kita yun na yung last na mahahawakan kita. I hate this feeling Yumi kaya naging bakla ako, kasi madali lang mag move on kung bakla ka. Marami pang lalaki ang kaso nagpakita ka eh. Please, don't leave me like she left me.."

After that I couldn't talk we are both sobbing but I let him cry on my shoulders. Nang bigla na lang bumigat ng bigla yung katawan nya. "Kay mabigat.." Inulit ko pero di sya kumibo. "KAY!" Kinuha ko yung phone ko sa bulsa ko at tinawagan si Mitch na humingi ng tulong at sabihin na asa classroom parin kami at kailangan ni Kay ng tulong.

I didn't know na Ganon yung past nya. *Sorry Nevaeh pero aangkinin ko na si Kay ah, aalagaan ko naman sya. I'm sorry for you both pero aakuhin ko na yung nawala kay Kay nung nawala ka. Thank you Nevaeh!*

Kay is now in the clinic with the help of some boys and the nurse says he was just tired and need some proper sleep and rest. I was still thinking his reason of being gay.. I know he likes girls stuff now. But because of his masculinity issues nag-away sila ni Nevaeh?? I would never. Sorry na lang kung ma-offend ko si Nevaeh pero okay.

Moments later at nagising na rin sya. "Kay! Okay ka na ba ngayon sabi ng nurse kailangan mo ng pahinga para maka-" he cut me off by saying "Please Yumi get out, I need some time.. Please." I nodded at his request and left immediately.

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