I'm not perfect *featuring Johnnie Guilbert & Bryan Stars*

Secrets

Lauren's POV:
I just told Johnnie my story. He hugged me. I think he saw my scars?¿ I need to break the tension. What do i say? Shit. Why am I so awkward? I need to calm down. I'm just gonna text my best friend.
Me: hey, um, I'm with Johnnie rn & it's hella awkward. What do i ask him?
Shannon: OMG LAUHNNIE
Me: calm down dude, I need help.
Shannon: um, ask him what his favorite bands are.
Me: omg thanks so much.
Shannon: no prob, tell him i said hi.
"Hey, Johnnie?" I said. "Yeah, Lauren" Johnnie said. "What are your favorite bands?" I asked. "The ready set, the beatles, my chemical romance. I have a lot though. You?" Johnnie said. "Um, pierce the veil, all time low, the ready set, my chemical romance, issues, of mice & men, black veil brides, panic at the disco, 5 seconds of summer, fall out boy & austin jones." I said. "Lauren, i need to ask you something." Johnnie said. Omg is he gonna ask me out? "Y-yeah?" I said. "Um. I-I saw your scars. Can you please tell me why you hurt yourself?" Johnnie said while looking at the ground. I knew he saw them. I just didn't think he would care. "It all started when i was 7 years old" I said.
*flash back*
"Lauren, no one likes you. Go away." Shauna said. "Yeah, no one cares about you. You're a waste of space." Mia said while smirking. "Fine!" I said while running into the bathroom, crying. Why do they hate me so much? I did nothing to make them hate me. I'm just a new kid. I've been here for 3 days & I'm already being bullied.
*5 years later*
I walked into my homeroom, I knew everyone there. My 2 best friends amber & hanna were in my homeroom. I sat behind hanna & in front of amber. So far i was liking 7th grade.
*4 months into 7th grade*
"Lauren, get up. You're in my seat." Brianna said. "Um, your name isn't on it..." I said with an attitude. Before I knew it, i was pushed out of the chair. Since then, i was bullied everyday. I became depressed af. No one helped me. Literally, none of the teachers would make her stop.
*2 months before school ends*
"Lauren, do you want to be in our group?" Hanna & Erin said. "Sure" I said with a smile. "Um, can i be in your group?" Brianna said. No. This can't be happening. "Sure" said Hanna. I'm gonna throw up. "Lauren, why are you in my group?" Brianna said. "Um, Hanna asked me & you asked her. So go away." We (our group) went to the counselor about 3 times because of Brianna. She caused so much drama.
*last day of school*
"I'm gonna miss you guys sfm" i said as i hugged amber, shannon, hanna, abby, amanda & ally. "We'll miss you too. Remember, stay strong" abby said.
*3 weeks into summer break*
"I can't do this anymore" i said as i cut myself with a razor. I was doing so well. Why did this have to happen?
*flash back over*
I didn't realize that i was crying. "I just wish I wasn't scared to kill myself. I don't deserve to be alive" i mumbled to myself. Johnnie pulled me in for a hug. "Don't ever say that, you're an amazing human. How many days clean are you?" Johnnie said. "Over 500" i said while playing with my fingers. "I'm so proud of you." Johnnie said. "I couldn't have done it without you tbh. I've watched every livestream & youtube video. I would've met you last year at warped but my parents wouldn't let me go." I said. "Can I have your number, pls?" Johnnie said. Omgomgomg "yeah sure, um we'll switch phones." I said. "Okay, here ya go" Johnnie said as we switched phones again. "Thank you, we should go find Bryan & my dad" i said. "Good idea" johnnie said while smirking.
These are gonna be long chapters btw. On another note, I can't believe over 50 people are reading this fanfic😊