I'm not perfect *featuring Johnnie Guilbert & Bryan Stars*

Author's note // MDE

My opinion on MDE's break up:

I'm sad that mde broke up but it's for the best, Alex said that it was "emotionally draining" & I can see why, it must be hard dealing with all the hate they get. Kyle, Shannon & Tyler ((Tyler wasn't an actual member though)) were kicked out bc no one in the channel liked them but Kyle was one of the original members since November 2014. One of the members also tried to punch Kyle in the face.
The break up is the best thing for them right now, they might come back in a few years. Please don't hurt yourselves in any way, it's not worth it. They'll still be posting on their individual channels, Twitters, Instagram & snapchat. It's not like they're falling off the face of the earth. They helped me a lot but it comes to a point where they have to help themselves & this was their best option since everyone on the channel were sad, depressed, drained, anxious, etc. They'll still do collabs with each other on their channels, Johnnie & Alex are still going to be dating & they have a new pug named Lola. I just wish everyone the best moving forward. They really deserve a break & we shouldn't be depressed about it.

My letters to the members//fellow escapers
Kyle- I'm so so sorry that you were treated poorly, you're always going to be my fav member of mde. You can get through this, I promise. I just wish you'd tell us sooner instead of suffering in silence. You helped me a lot since 2014 & you still are, no matter what happens.
Johnnie- I was a fan since your first YouTube video, I had the biggest crush on you but now I don't, I always supported you & Alex even before you guys announced that you two were dating. I still want to meet you & possibly become friends. I really hope you get far in your music career, you deserve it.
Jordan- you were the sweetest member of mde, you always had the nicest things to say. I really hope I get to meet you sometime this summer if you're touring.
Jeydon- you have the best sense of humor & I really hope you & Kyle remain being best friends. Both of you helped me accept who I am & I'm nothing but grateful for that.
Alex- you're an amazing person & I'm sorry that you're emotionally drained. You really deserve this break & I wish you & Johnnie the best in your relationship. You were my second favorite member in mde.
Bryan- I'm so happy that you created this collab channel, you picked amazing people to be in it. I hope you get far in your music career, maybe you, Johnnie, Jeydon, Shannon, Tyler & Jordan can tour together.
Shannon- I barely watched your videos but I really hope you had fun with the other members. You deserve the best & I'm so sorry you were 'kicked out' of mde.
Escapers- don't hurt yourselves, it's not worth it. You're all strong as fuck & we should be happy for them having the courage to tell us this. Sure, we'll miss them but they'll do collabs on their individual channels. We can do this, I promise.
✨#mdeforever 11.28.14-5.14.16✨