KILLER EYES

CHAPTER 14

Since we got back from the slope, I felt uneasy and my whole body hurt and I was 100% sure that I would have bruises everywhere later. Whenever I tried to move a little faster, the pain paralyzed my whole body and it seemed to me as if I had no control over it, as if my body was suddenly so weak that it could not move on its own.

It was an unpleasant feeling, the only thing I could do was walk slowly, but with every step it hurt. I thought snowboarding would be fun, but so far it's just horrible, and all I want to do now is go home.

I lay on my bed and closed my eyes, the image of Rebecca and Jasper appeared in my head and my eyes sprung open. I felt really weird, like I was being betrayed by my best friend, and feeling such pain is more painful than a fall down the whole slope. I wanted to cry, but at the same time I didn't want to, it was as if I had lost everyone around me and I was left with only my mother, who is miles away and I can't hug her and cry on her chest.

After a moment of thinking, I was interrupted by a strong knock on the door and without being able to say come in someone opened the door abruptly.

„Ria...are you okay?" Jasper ran to my bed with a startled look on his face.

I abruptly sat down on the bed, my body ached and tears started to form in my eyes. Maybe this is the better case since I could have broken all my bones, I was glad I didn't, even though I wasn't far from it.

„Don't move so much" he said quietly, gently rubbing my shoulder and slowly pushing me back to lie down.

I didn't perceive his touch as before and it occurred to me that all the warmth I had felt from him before had disappeared.

„Jasper please take your hand off of me"

His expression was surprised, but he slowly moved his hand away and put it back to his body. I know that his gaze indicated to me that he would like to hug me now and never let go, but I wasn't in the mood to hug him. I never thought that the thought of not hugging Jasper back would flash through my mind, but it just happened, I don't understood what is wrong to me.

„Are you okay? I heard you fell" he took the chair that was behind the table to my bed and sat on it.

Of course he didn't see how I fell, as if he could when he had his hands full with Rebecca.

Anger and sadness flowed through my body, it was as though I felt disgusted by him just sitting next to me.

„I'm fine Jay..." I said quietly but there was a hint of anger in my voice.

"You don't look like it, I was really worried about you and now I feel like you're angry at me, it's as if you didn't want to talk to me" his words were soft as if he was afraid of what he was supposed to say to me and how far he can go without hurting me.

„I'm fine, but how were you Jay? Were you good? Was it fun with Rebecca? It looked like you two were really close..." my eyes met his and tears were falling down my cheeks.

His expression was surprised for a moment, but after a while it turned into hurt and sadness, he probably could tell where my questions were going and was aware of what I wanted to tell him. I know he's sorry and hurt at the same time, but he was the one who once said that he would never smile at anyone who hurt me before, even if his mother told him to.

„Ria...." he leaned in closer to me.

„I'm sorry..." he said quietly, placing his hand on my cheek.