KILLER EYES

CHAPTER 20

I was lying on the bed, not wanting to move my stomach, it still hurt, and the bruises I had were really visible on my pale skin.
A week had passed since I hadn't been to school and all I did was read books and sleep, but it didn't feel like before.

Jasper kept texting and calling me, well I told him that I'm still sick and that I'm going to sleep because I'm tired. He wanted to come and take care of me, but my answer was the same and I always told him not to come because he would catch it from me and I don't want him to be sick.

I knew it was hurting him that he couldn't help me, but I wasn't ready to see him, the truth is I didn't want to. However, I wonder how things are between him and Rebecca, as he did not mention her even once in the conversation.

Before on the trip, I thought for a moment that Jay might like me a little more than a friend and that the promise he made me would be kept, but I guess I was wrong.

I was sitting by the window, holding a book in my hands, but I couldn't concentrate on reading anymore and my gaze was focused on the view from my window.
It was still snowing outside and the surrounding houses had their lights on.

It looked nice, but at the same time sad. A person never knows what is going on in those houses and whether people in them aren't experiencing something like me.

I put the book back on my shelf and went downstairs. My mom stood in the kitchen, taking out the groceries. I didn't even realize that it was so late, I was surprised that after such a long time we met in one kitchen because usually when she comes home I'm sleeping .

I looked at the watch on my hand and it was 23:15, it looks like she worked longer today than last time and you can also see it on her face as she looks exhausted.

„Let me help you" I said softly so she doesn't get a fright and took the bag from her hands.

„That's okay honey...I can do it by myself" she smiled.

„I said I'll do it, go sit down" I ignored her trying to take the bag from my hands and she was probably surprised by my words.

I myself did not understand where these words came from, but it occurs to me that anger and sadness has been growing in me from that night until now, and I myself could didn't know whether I had control over me. As if I was no longer interested in what would happen next or what I would say.

„Ria...are you okay?" She asked quietly as she sat on the couch. Her body was not relaxed as before, and she did not understand what was happening to her daughter.

„I'm okay....my stomach hurts that's all, you don't have to worry"

„I know you pretty well, did something happen?" She stood up from the couch and walked closer to me.

„Like I said my stomach hurts, but to stop you from worrying I'm on my period" I know, one lie after another, but I'm used to it by now.

„Okay, if you need anything, be sure to let me know and how was the trip?" She asked excitedly, and there were sparks in her eyes.

„It was good" I took out the ingredients I needed for dinner out of the fridge.

„That's it? I expected some gossip" she laughed.

„It was cold and I learned how to snowboard" I was able to tell her at least one true thing.

„I'm happy for you and what about Jasper?" She asked me as if she were suggesting something illegal again.

„What about him?" I sighed because I knew where her questions were headed.