KILLER EYES

CHAPTER 15

„What does zero have to do with it?" I asked and laughed shyly, still looking at my plate where I was playing with food.

„He was in charge of you" his gaze was serious and the atmosphere was tense.

Jasper had his hands on the table, holding them tightly in fists as if he were ready to stand up beat the shit out of Zero. My heart was pounding and my face was pale, could it be that all these lies would break out soon? I don't know what to tell him but I should choose my words carefully because Jasper is on the verge of exploding out of anger.

I was afraid to say something, even a small word, and I kept thinking about how to get out of this. I know he sees through my lies and he doesn't like lying. Right now I wished I was a good liar.

„Ria....I'll ask you again and don't lie to me. Did Zero do this to you?" he said seriously, and it occurred to me that his face had turned cold, as if I were talking to Jasper's dark side again.

„N-o" I said quietly and refused to look at him.

I didn't want to look into his eyes, they would be filled with disappointed that I lied to him again.

„Why do you keep lying Ria!" he shouted and you could hear anger in his voice.

I don't blame him because It's my fault for the most part, and I can't even imagine how I would feel if Jay lied to me like I'm lying to him right now. I want tell him everything from top to bottom. I would like to trust him with my feelings, but the fear of Zero was greater and the fear of him killing Jasper if I told him anything was even bigger.

My heart ached as I looked at Jasper, his eyes weren't full of happiness as before, they were full of disappointment and pity. It was as if he no longer believed me but at the same time did not understand what was happening between us. All these quarrels are because of one person, and maybe I started to regret not killing Zero in that classroom before. Maybe these quarrels would finally end.

„So you still won't tell me the truth?" he said quietly and refused to look at me.

I felt my heart breaking at the thought of losing him and drifting apart from each other. I wanted to hug him and be in his embrace until morning or to laugh and eat our favorite food like we did before we were in the room. I wanted him to smile at me and pat me on the head. All these memories came to my mind and slowly left with Jasper.

„I think I lost my appetite, good night" he said coldly and went to the door where I stopped him.

„Don't leave, please" I said quietly and hugged him from the behind.

My body was weak and tears streamed down my cheeks. My hands were shaking and the pain I was in hurt. It was as if they had taken away something really important from that has been there all your life and then it just disappears and you try to keep it with you for as long as possible and you are afraid that it is already long lost.

I held Jasper tight and refused to let him go even if he ordered me to push him away, I would still hold him and refuse to let go. He is too valuable to me and losing him is like losing yourself. I know Jasper feels the same way, but now he's too angry at me to be able to realize it. I know that when he gets angry he will get over it after a while but now I had the feeling that if I let him go and he left, he would never come back.

„Then tell me the truth Ria...." even though I was hugging him he did not touch my hands. He just stood there and didn't move, he didn't move towards me or away from me. As if he was stuck thinking about what to do.