KILLER EYES

CHAPTER 18

⚠️Disclaimer⚠️Please dont read this chapter if you are easily triggered. This chapter contains physical abuse, bulying and suicidal thoughts. Please be advised.

It's been about half an hour since Jasper left and he still hasn't returned. Many different thoughts went through my head, and all I did was sit on the bed and look at my watch every minute. I was 100% sure that something had happened but I didn't know what, I'm guessing that it has something to do with his mother. Maybe something happened with his family, by the look of sadness and anger on his face it's hard to know what's going on.

But why didn't he tell me anything? We always tell each other about everything, but as I said before, even though we are so close at the same time we move further and further away from each other and I'm the one to blame. Maybe if I didn't start with those lies, everything would be completely different and maybe he would trust me with what is bothering him.

I am sorry that things have to be like this and that he's disappointed in me. Maybe he doesn't trust me anymore he's giving me a taste of my own medicine by not telling me what's bothering him like I have been doing for over a month.

I looked at the clock again and it had been 49 minutes since he left and I'm really worried about what's going on. A part of me is telling me to go after him, and the other part was blaming myself for not staying with him when he needed it most and that maybe he just needed time for himself, and I should rather wait in bed until he came back.

After a while, however fear flooded my body and I began to panic, what if he met Zero along the way or something happened to him?

My body took off and quickly opened the door that led to the hallway. It was about 20:00, so in the rooms next to me and opposite me had music still playing and laughter of the students was heard from every room, I think I smelled marijuana or cigarettes, so it just proved to me that Jasper is right and that everyone is probably „having fun".

As I walked down the hall, I tried to listen behind every door of the students because I wasn't sure where exactly Jasper was going and I didn't even know who he was in the room with or where his room was because we always spent all our free time in my room and it didn't even occur to him to ask where his was.

From each door all you could hear was the words „chug chug!" Or the penetrating laughter that you could hear all through the hall. It was surprising that they hadn't woken up the teachers who were downstairs.

It occurred to me that Jay probably wouldn't be in those rooms as he had an important call and he wouldn't go somewhere where it's loud. I wondered where he could have gone but I couldn't think of anything and I felt like I was out of my mind.

I continued on my way when suddenly a random door to a room opened and someone crashed into me and spilled her drink all over me, but according to the smell I could tell it was alcohol.

„Alexandria...I didn't think you were alive" my gaze met Chloe who was holding a bottle in her hand and she was already really drunk.

„I'm sorry Chloe, but I don't have time to talk to you right now" I said quickly, stepping forward when suddenly her hand stopped me.

„Look here you stupid cow, i don't give a shit if you have time or not" she laughed and her hand squeezed my shoulder really hard.

„Chloe please, I have to go" I said softly, trying to put her hand down because the only thing I was interested in right now was Jasper.

„Do I look like I care? Look I have something I've wanted to do for a long time now"

Severe pain knocked my small body to the ground. Pain after pain came until I could not get up from the ground.