KILLER EYES

CHAPTER 16

My eyes slowly opened and the rays of the sun shone brightly into my eyes. The thought of being dead crossed my head, so I sat up and started looking around. I was still in my hotel room, sitting on a chair holding a book I had read yesterday. I probably fell asleep while reading and didn't even realize it.

Everything that happened yesterday was too much for me. Jasper slept peacefully on my bed, holding a pillow, probably imagining it was me.

I smiled and went to the bathroom, where I looked at myself in a large mirror. I was pale and had circles under my eyes. It occurs to me that since Zero came into my life, everything has been going downhill, my friendship with Jay is slowly fading away, and so is my health.

It occurs to me that in the last year I can't concentrate on anything well and my head is getting more and more dizzy due to the stress which is so overwhelming that I can't keep track of what it's from anymore.

I went into the shower and turned on the hot water, hot drops of water fell on my body. It was a pleasant feeling and I felt better, also my problems went away as quickly as they came. Different thoughts flowed through my head, but in my body especially the fear of Zero flowed.

I touched my neck and the thought of what happened yesterday made my body go numb. I didn't want him to teach me to snowboard anymore because who knows how it will turn out. Everything that happens around me makes me depressed and it occurs to me that I am slowly losing sight of reality.

I didn't even notice how small my hands were and how much they were shaking when I picked up my shampoo. I didn't understand why something like this was happening to me, but i feel like I'm lost weight from so much stress and I thought I eat enough.

I washed my hair and got out of the shower where I looked in the mirror at myself once again. I was still pale and my stomach was rumbling a lot, I was pretty hungry and I should go eat. My gaze was focused on my naked body, and I noticed bruises forming on my arms and legs and wondering what to do with them.

I put a towel around me and went to my suitcase where I started looking for another towel with which I could dry my hair. Jasper was still sleeping peacefully, and it looked like he was having a good dream because he was smiling.

„Jasper wake up, it's time for breakfast" I said loudly while I was still looking for my towel in the suitcase.

„Mhm" he said sleepily and rolled to the other side facing his back to me.

I smiled because I was sorry that I ruined his beautiful dream, but I didn't have a choice and threw a comb at him, which I randomly pulled out of my suitcase.

„Why do you have to be so violent in the morning, can't you see I'm up!" His expression was angry and he got out of bed.

„I'm sorry but you refused to wake up" I laughed and dried my hair with a towel.

His face was all red and he looked away. He looked like he saw a ghost and I didn't understand what was happening to him, so I came closer to him and grabbed his forehead.

„It doesn't look like you have a fever" I smiled.

„Get dressed, please" he said, refusing to look at me.

I didn't even realize that I only had a towel around me, so I quickly took random things out of my suitcase and quickly changed in the bathroom. My heart was racing and I covered my face with my hands.

Why am I so stupid? I know that if Jasper saw me naked, it wouldn't change anything between us, but still where did I leave my mind ?! Recently I haven't been thinking the way I should......