Can you live without me?

Pregnancy Chronicle- 3) Home

Three weeks after their first visit to their gynecologist, Eda and Serkan discovered a lot about babies and pregnant women through books. Serkan being a fast reader and blessed with good memory was able to finish half a dozen books in that time interval. While Eda had managed only two. He would tell her everything he had read about babies and soon to be mom's throughout the day, during night on couch or bed before falling asleep and Eda would be all ears to him. Till now, none of their family members or friends had any idea about Eda's pregnancy.

Eda had begun to experience a lot of changes in her body throughout the phase of three weeks. She had developed a strong sense smell and almost half the things she smelled, made her puke. Her puking had still not subsided and almost all her days began with her clapping her hand to her mouth and rushing to the washroom with Serkan on her heels. She even noticed to have gained some weight, with a small bump beginning to appear on her tummy. Her ankles were swollen and Serkan would always pester her to not stand for anything more than five minutes. Eda had begun to experience many mood swings throughout the day. Throwing tantrums, weeping, feeling excited or energetic throughout the day and Serkan was very supportive of her during all those times. She was very thankful of having Serkan by her side, who pampered her always but was sometimes left frustrated due to his overprotectiveness for her. They even made changes in Eda's diet and bought maternal clothes and accessories for her wardrobe.

As soon as Eda and Serkan had confirmed with Nehir, their gynecologist that it was safe to have intimacy during pregnancy, they had resumed back to their love making sessions. Though their first time after Eda's pregnancy was a bit comical and awkward. As they thought that their intimacy might disturb the baby. Later, they laughed wholeheartedly about their theory.

**Three weeks later**

"Serkan, I don't think - I don't think I can handle giving birth to twins and nor do I think we would be able to take care of them after giving birth.", Eda was throwing her latest tantrum, sitting infront of her dressing mirror applying eye liner. She was getting ready for their weekly visit to Gynecologist.

"But Eda, we still don't know if we are having twins or not.", Serkan replied in a calm voice. He was dressed and standing near Eda, leaning against their wardrobe.

Dr. Nehir had informed them during last week's visit that by this time next week, they would be aware of how many babies they are having. And Eda hadn't let go off this topic ever since. She was fretting and running at her wits end throughout the past week on the prospect of having multiple babies, especially twins. Serkan too was having a tough last week, having to face the brunt of Eda's hysterics and calming her down, he knew it was her pregnancy hormones that was making her, extra crazy and wild. The prospect of becoming first time parents to twins, was not very appealing and rather worrying Serkan a lot.
He was also very anxious for Eda, giving birth to twins during her first pregnancy, which would definitely be very hard and traumatic experience for her.

"I'm losing my mind Serkan! I am definitely losing my mind.", Eda exclaimed, getting up from her dressing table and facing Serkan.

"Eda calm down please... Lutfen Eda.", Serkan pleaded her in a level tone.

"Serkan how can I be calm? And how can you be calm? Are you not worried on the possibility of having twins?" Eda asked him in a restless tone.

Serkan took Eda's hands in his and replied,"I am worried Eda... I am very much worried about you and becoming parents to twins. But I can't show it because I have to stay calm for you and the baby's sake-"